venting journal

inconvenience 1

well, uh. i confessed to my crush. did go the way i expected... which was horrible. we've been friends for almost 9 years. i developed feelings about 4 years ago but i was too much of a pussy to tell him. until him and my ex got together. my ex had gotten with him a month after we broke up. fuck. this shit is horrible. already cried two times in less than an hour. i hate being gay. it sucks, especially living in a overly christian town. almost everyone is homophobic and transphobic, which isn't a good combo with me existing. i want to run away to be genuinely honest. into a place where gay people are accepted, you know. i hope you understand. hopefully.