It Was Him All Along

CHAPTER 08

Serenity Sylvester

Its been a month and a half since nag pakita si marky sa akin at tumira siya dito sa bahay. And let me tell you this, every minute na we're together, the more na nagiging comfortable kami sa isa't isa, and mas lalo akong nasasanay na kasama siya. Like when he's late na makauwi galing work, iba yung nararamdaman ko, I mean I feel empty when he's not around... lalo na this past week, it's either kasi na late siya uuwi or the next day na siya uuwi tapos aalis din agad. That's why I don't even bother na to wake up early in the morning, dahil if I wake up early and try to cook breakfast for him, its either his on the way to the car or he's already on the road.

I'm just here in the office, and it's 12 am, why am I still here? Kasi bored ako, nag text sa akin si mark na bukas na siya ng tanghali makakauwi, at inask niya ako kung pwede siya mag pahatid sa chopper ko tomorrow since need niya makapunta agad sa Sydney, at umoo lang ako sa kanoya at sinabihan siya na pumunta na lang siya dun sa pinag tatambayan ng chopper ko at sinabihan ko din agad yung pilot ko.

"Miss aren't you gonna go home yet? I'ts too late, it might be dangerous on the road, there's been accidents of drunk drivers on the road lately" sabi nung guard ko at ngumiti lang ako sa kaniya at umiling

"I'm fine, thank you for your concern" sabi ko din sa guard at nag bow naman siya bago lumabas ng office ko at napa buga na lang ako ng hangin...

You might ask kung bakit parang ang OA ko or parang iba yung reaction ko eh late lang naman umuwi si marky? Kasi simula nung maka uwi kami galing sa King Edward park, nag iba na ang pag tingin ko kay mark.

Every thing na gagawin niya sa akin or para sa akin, iba na yung nagiging impression sa akin. Nag kakaruon na ng ibang meaning lahat ng gagawin niya sa akin, iba na yung nararamdaman ko every time na makikita ko siya. I think I'm falling for him. Pero hindi pwede.

"Aishhh!" Nablurt out ko na lang dahil sa stress na dala ng iniisip ko at nararamdaman ko.

I don't think I'm ready for this kind of feelings. It's dangerous. And Mark is still straight, and he treats me as his younger sibling, what can I do? I can't just walk up to him and tell him that i am falling for him so its either he goes back to Philippines and never talk to me or he reciprocate my feelings. Like that's any good. And I certainly can't tell him about my feelings.

It's gonna be so awkward, and he might ended up going back to the Philippines just for the awkwardness to cool down or he goes back to Philippines and not talk to me. Both things are a fatal blow to me.

I can't even avoid him, because we're literally living under the same roof, i can't avoid him. And avoiding him is like a childish choice, cause duh!? I've been there, and I've done that. And mark is kinda sensitive when it comes to the way I act around him, he knows when I'm mad, he knows when I'm sad, he knows when I want cuddle, he basically know everything about me. If I tried to avoid him, it would leave an impression to him that I am avoiding him, because of something. And he catches me avoiding him, it would turn into a conflict that will certainly end up in to me confessing my feelings and then the two options earlier would enter. So I really have no choice but to stay the same. That's why I can't acknowledge this feelings.

"Why are you still here?" Nagulat ako ng may mag salita kaya tumingin agad ako sa pinto at nakita ko sa marky na papalapit sa akin, is this a dream? Wth! Then he walks towards me and he suddenly pinch my cheeks and it hurts

"What the hell" reaction ko lang sa kaniya at tinignan siya ng masama at sumeryoso siya ng tingin sa akin at nag cross arm

"I asked you, why are you still here?" Sabi niya at inirapan ko lang siya at tumingin sa laptop kong naka sleep mode na, wala akong maexcuse...

"I thought tomorrow ka pa makakauwi? And why are YOU here?" Tanong ko sa kaniya at nag cross legs at tumingin sa kaniya

"Anyway, let's go home na, give me your keys" sabi niya at nanlaki ang mata ko sa sinabi niya

"Kiss!?" Takang tanong ko sa kaniya at tumango tango lang siya at tinignan ko siya sa mata

"Your car keys, give me now" sabi niya at tinignan ko lang siya ng masama dahil hindi niya pwedeng mahalata na iba ang pumasok sa isip ko

"Where's your car?" Tanong ko lang sa kaniya, at umayos na ng tayo at inirapan siya

"Well, i came home, and you weren't there so I went out and grab an uber, i figured out that you had your car here so its better kung mag uber na lang ako papunta here para ako na ang mag drive sayo" sabi niya at kinuha ko naman yung susi ko sa table at inabot sa kaniya at hinawakan niya ako sa kamay at hinila

Nang makarating kami sa kotse ay tumigil si mark sa pag bukas ng pinto ng car sa side ko, oo pinag bubuksan niya ako ng pinto, and he looked at me with all seriousness.

"Don't come home late again ah, you're not doing anything naman eh, mas okay nang mag puyat ka sa bahay kesa mag stay ka sa office mo, its dangerous na sa road lalo na at may recent accidents na nangyari at this kind of time, caused by drunk drivers" sabi niya sa akin at hinawakan ako sa mukha atsaka ginulo ang buhok ko, at napahinga naman ako ng malalim sa ginawa niya pero agad siyang inirapan at pumasok na sa kotse...

Okay, i can't pretend anymore, i cant hide this any longer. I love him na. And i don't know what to do sa nararamdaman ko para sa kaniya.

"Tomorrow pala, samahan mo ko sa mall, i want you to meet someone" sabi niya na ikipinagtaka ko

"Someone?" Takang tanong ko sa kaniya at tumingin siya sa akin

"Yes, someone na baka maging asawa ko"