Autophobia - (Vkook)

17

"I thought we had a moment last time you were at my place.. does that even mean anything to you?"

"I never said that Jungkook! Why are you so mad all of a sudden? Chill out will you.."

"Okay then, I'm sorry. I guess this only was a big misunderstanding.. I guess I was wrong about the two of us", I said without noticing that everyone near our table was staring at me. Taehyung looked down at the table again and crossed his arms. That hurt me even more since it was very clear that he simply didn't care about either me or my emotions. For the first time ever, Taehyung wasn't the one who was about to cry.. I was. I felt my breathing getting noticeably worse and how my body started shaking. The hot liquid started boiling up inside of my eyes before it fell down on my cheeks. I hate this... I hate this so much!

"Jungkook you okay?", Namjoon asked after a while. "Yeah do you wanna go talk about it somewhere else?", Jimin continued.

I looked up at them slowly before looking down again.

"Th-there's n-nothing here to.. to talk about", I pulled out my chair and left the table, in silence...

Third person's pov

"Well that's fucked up", Hoseok said confused before digging into his food again.

"Taehyung why are you so rude all of a sudden?", Jimin said in disbelief. "He genuinely only wanted an answer for his question. He's probably really sad right now.."

Taehyung looked up for the first time in a while now. You could see the regret that was playing in his eyes. Taehyung hated this so bad. That he always seemed to take the wrong decisions all the time. But he knew all of this was his fault, as always.. it wasn't like he didn't like Jungkook because that was truly false, he only did what he thought was the best at the moment, and it ended up being the worst thing he could ever have done. If I only was braver, he thought for himself. If I only was more confident in myself, then I would've seen that the thing between me and him wasn't a game for him. Jungkook after all was the one who seemed confident in the beginning so why did I have to ruin it...

"Taehyung please don't overthink this, I can so visibly see that you do. Let's forget about this for awhile okay? You can apologize to Jungkook when the time comes, cause right now, I think he needs a minute for himself", Jimin said while gently brushing Taehyung's cheek. Namjoon who sat next to the said boy patted him on his back and continued,

"We all and Seokjin and Yoongi were planning on go clubbing later today. Since it after all is Friday I think you should let go for today and party a little. How about that?"

Taehyung looked at the taller one and made an unsure face.

"If it helps, Jungkook probably won't be there after what happened today..?", Hoseok added carefully, since the topic still was pretty fresh.

Taehyung thought for himself for a while. He had never been to a club before, mostly because he was afraid that his friends would leave him in the crowd, but also since he in general didn't like small spaces with a lot of people in them. He looked at Jimin who was sitting in front of him and took him by his hand. He breathed out slowly and pressed the other ones hand slightly.

"Do you promise that you won't leave me? And that you always stay by my side..?"

Jimin sighed a little bit. He really wanted to hang out with Yoongi today but he knew that this probably wouldn't work out if Taehyung followed, so hid his emotions for now.

"Sure Taehyung", he smiled at him which made the other one smile back.

"Then it's settled!", the tallest one in the group exclaimed in a smile.

Yeah.. then it's settled, Taehyung thought behind his smile.

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