The Indecent Obsession

CHAPTER 33

CHAPTER 33

DAVID'S

MY WIFE WAS FUMING MAD.

I should have been more careful. Lalo na at marami na siyang tanong tungkol sa pagkato niya. I felt like my heart has been ripped off my ribcage when she smashed our wedding pictures to the wall. Damn it, those have emotional value to me even if those were just edited. We never got married through the church. Nagawa ko lang siyang papirmahin ng marriage certificate nang hindi niya nalalaman.

"Bakit mo ba ito ginagawa, ha? Wala ka namang mapapala sa akin, 'di ba? Ano? Mayaman ba ang pinagmulan kong pamilya at piniperahan mo lang o may iba ka pang motibo?"

Tangina, napahilamos ako ng mukha. Kung hindi ko lang sana tinawagan si Martin, hindi niya sana narinig ang usapan namin.

"I love you, Hannah. I really do."

I tried to reach out to her hand but she pushed me away. My queen is really scary when she's mad. Ang lakas niya rin.

"You're not in love, David! You're obsessed! You're indecently obsessed!" she exclaimed.

I'm fcking guilty as hell. Hindi ko nagawang tumingin sa iba dahil sa kanya. Lahat kaya kong gawin para sa kanya. Baliw na baliw ako sa babaeng ito. At hindi ako makakapayag na malayo siya sa akin. Hindi ko kaya. I couldn't even imagine myself.

"If loving you is an indecent obsession then I'm humbly willing to be obsessed for the rest of my life. I don't fucking care if I'll lose my sanity because I've been crazy over you since the day we first met, Hannah. I will accept the wrath of your anger but I will never let you go this time. I have had enough!"

She tried to get off my grip.

"Get off me! Bitawan mo ako! Nababaliw ka na!"

"You're not leaving me, Hannah..."

Not again. Ayaw ko nang maulit ang nangyari sa nakaraan. Napahamak siya dahil wala ako sa tabi niya. Kaya't hindi na ako ulit makakapayag na mawala siya paningin ko. But I was taken aback with the next thing that she just said.

"Sa ilang buwan nating pagsasama, araw-raw kang nagkaroon ng pagkakataon para sabihin sa akin ang totoo, David, pero hindi mo ginawa. Mas pinili mong magsinungaling. Sinamantala mo ang kondisyon ko. You're the worst husband a woman could ever have. Hindi ko alam kung bakit kinailangan mong gawin iyon. Kapatid ko 'yon, David! Hindi siya ibang tao. Higit kanino man ay siya ang pinakakinakailangan ko sa pagkakataong madilim ang mundo ko."

"Do you really want to leave me, Hannah?" I asked.

You're the worst husband a woman could ever have.

Her words are more painful than the depth of a bullet. My breathing hitched. Yeah, I realized she's right. I'm the worst husband a woman could ever have. I kept her from her family. I kept her from her son. I kept her for myself. I should feel remorse about what I did but I didn't. Mahal na mahal ko ang babaeng ito.

"There's no point of staying in this house, David. Especially when very corner of this house will remind me of all your lies."

I sighed to hide the pain caused by her daggering words. She has no idea how much she can make and break me at the same time. I've been living under the raining bullets but none of those ever hurt me. My desire to avenge has been my bulletproof all those years; but seeing her cry because of me hurts like hell. Para akong tinadtad ng mga bala sa puso.

"Will you be happy if I will let you go?" It was almost a whisper. Damn it. Sana tama itong gagawin ko. If this is what will make her happy I'm willing to let go. I'm willing to follow her through her shadows --- just like the old times.