SB19 || Love Me Back

Chapter Thirty Two

Justin: " Right here at the same spot. " Sagot nito at saglit na nilingon ako.

There were seconds of silence before he continued. I heard him sighed.

Justin: " Gel.. " Mahinang sabi nito.

Me: " I know.. " Sagot ko at saglit na nilingon siya at nginitian. 

Justin: " I was an idiot. Naging duwag ako. I'm so sorry.. " He sounded apologetic while staring straight to my eyes.

Me: " Expectations can be very disappointing. The feeling of rejection sucked. But It was my choice anyway.. Choice ko naman ding umasa kaya it was also partly my fault. " Casual na sabi ko dito. " Maybe I didn't love myself as much as I thought and maybe I didn't feel as worthy as I thought. " I shrugged.

Justin : " No Gel.. I was being a coward. I can't ask you how you were feeling because I was scared and after everything I didn't feel like I was in a place where I even have the right to ask you. And you don't deserve to be treated that way. I was being selfish. "

I smiled at him. These are the words I was longing to hear from him then. But that was before. Kung noon pa siguro ko itong narinig baka na iba ang takbo ng storya namin.

Me: " It may sound cliche but it's the best thing that has ever happened to me. Though I couldn't see it back then, I eventually realized that the best person that could impact my life wasn't someone else, it was me. Everything happens for a reason because you helped me find my worth. " Sagot ko sa kanya and gave him another smile.

Mariin ako nitong tinitigan sa mga mata na para bang sinisigurado nito kung nagsasabi ba ako ng totoo.

Me: " I've a learned a lot of things at utang ko sayo lahat yun." I looked at him and I smiled. " I know you're a good person Jah.. There are just things that are probably not meant to be and I wish you all the happiness in the world. " Nginitian ko ulit ito. " I truly mean that because you deserve to be happy and loved."

Justin: " Thank you. " Sabi nito at nginitian ako. " If I could only go back in time.. I w-- "

Me: " Wag mo ng balikan ang nakaraan. " Natatawang pag putol ko sa sinabi niya. " I was a mess back then! " I cringed. " All is well now. " Sabi ko at tinapik tapik ang likod niya. " Masyado ng ma drama. Wala kabang baong joke dyan? " Tanong ko nalang para ma iba na ang topic.

Justin: " Syempre! " Excited niyang sagot. Nakangiti na ito ngayon at nakasandal na ang likuran sa railings. At ako naman ay nakasandal parin paharap.