It's crippling how I can feel it burning up inside
An angel and a demon tearing up my insides
The battle rages on I can feel it getting ready
To explode, to implode, the feeling's getting heavy
The inner eye gazes upon my soul
Criticising, slashing, making me less than whole
I'm ready to die, too scared to die
Just want to escape my lie
Of happiness and positivity
Of being healthy it's exhausting
I'm reverting and relapsing
My chest breaking and collapsing
I heave a breath and move on
Usually, but with all that's going on
DID, PTSD, anxiety, and depression
My mental illnesses are running wild
I'm losing control, they're not so mild
Hatred simmers low and bubbles up
Until I could tear at my skin to escape this rut
Internalising, criticising, wanting to slice at my wrists
I hate myself, I'm out of my wits
I hate myself but I don't
I do but I don't
I hate myself?
I hate myself....
