Confusion

You

You go lay on Mattia's bed and sigh

"So what happened"
"I dont want to talk about it"
"Why not you know you can tell me everything" he says with a worried face
"Oh really? Yeah i dont think so"
"..."

You get up and look around the place a little bit

"I thought you were gonna redecorate your room again or something"
"I was but then i got lazy"

You see the wall that Mattia calls Memory wall
Its where he glues all his printed out photos to
You go up to it
You see that the photos from when u guys were dating was still there

"Why didnt you take these down?
"I didnt want to"
"Why though"
"Becuase i still miss you"
"I dont get it why'd you cheat on me then?"
You say as you sit infront of him crossing your arms
"I dont..know.."

You scoff as you start scrolling through snap

"Look I know i made a mistake but i swear i regret it its the most stupidest thing i did in my life"

You lift your head up slowly
Mattia leans in to you fast and kisses you
You gave in for a min but pull away

"I..can't "
"Why not..."he says holding your hand
"..."
"It's Mar isnt it?" He says sighing
"You know like thats messed up though right?you getting with your stepbrother? It's like a classic porn film"
"I should've went to sid's place"
"Im just saying like how are you guys gonna work that out if you guys end up dating what about your parents?"
"Would you not? Don't you think we already know that? right now Mattia all I wanna say is thats I do miss you just not that way..I miss when we were just friends.."
"If i keep trying would you take me back though?"
"No"
"Wow that was a quick answer okay fine no more touchytouchy"
"Touchytouchy? Really? Okay Mr.5 years old no more Touchytouchy "

You guys both laugh and talk about other stuff for another hour and start watching a movie

3 hours later

You guys fell asleep while watching a movie
It was right before sunrise
You get up to see Mattia still sleeping
You guys were gonna hang out today anyways but you wanted to change so you carefully wake Mattia up

"Hmm...yess...?" He says with his eyes half open
"Imma go change and come back later okay?"
"Mhmm...yea...call me"

You nod as you chuckle
You get in the car and start driving
You reach the house and sneak back in through the window
It was dark so you couldnt see anything

"Lilooo im backkk"

She usually meows when she hears your voice but there was no response
You find the light switch and turn it on
As you turn to your bed you get scared and fall to the ground
Mar was laying on your bed with lilo sleeping on his stomach

"JESUS MAR WHAT THE HECK ARE YOU DOING"you say as you get back up
"I was waiting for you obviously you weren't answering my calls or texts"
"You couldn't have said something when i came inside?so you know i wouldn't have gotten scared??????"
"Nah you deserved it"
"Excuse me? And..why is that?"
"You hurt me"
"ME? HURT YOU?"
"Keep your voice down.."

You scoff

"Wow I hurt you? Okay im sorry but how did I hurt you?"
"In many ways "
"And You dont think you have hurt me also?"
"Not as much as you did"

You sigh as you cannot believe his words
Everything he has done to you just start to flood through your brain
Your start to tear up

"You know you're the one who went off with a junior and started being all lovey dovey NOT TO MENTION INVITE HER OVER but then when i had a phone call with a boy you started to get all jealous who do you think is more hurt mar huh?

He looks at you and says nothing as you shed a tear

"I fucking went over to Mattia's so I can tell him that he should stop trying and he and I should just be friends when you went over to ale's to "cheer her up" but no ofcourse it's all my fault right? I hurt you? Yea mhmm okay I shouldve seen the signs You motherfucking player"
"Im not a player"
"Oh wow really? I dont know Mar messing with two girls? Oh or were you just being "friendly" hm? Was that it?"
"Y/n li-"
"Im starting to think that I should've just went back with Mattia"

He puts lilo down beside him and get up slamming you to the wall

"Being abusive now? How toxic" you say as you glare at him
"Me and Ale didnt do anything. She tried to but i didnt let her and  dont you dare say that"
"Say what? me and Mattia getting back together? I mean i think it would be less painful then being in this shithole with you"

He punches the wall making a loud bang
It scares you
He sighs. He pulls your waist with one hand closer to him
You can feel his hand shake
You start to get worried but kept a straight face

"I know I do alot of stuff that hurts you"
You scoff " wow okay atleast you know"
"LISTEN"he says as he slams you into the wall again
"...I'm sorry"
"What?" You say as you look at him
"I'm sorry.. As i was saying i know i hurt you alot I dont know how to control my feelings so i do stupid stuff instead, I never felt this way about anyone before not even towards my ex
I get nervous around you y/n..so i do stupid stuff to get your attention" he says as his grabs your hand and puts it on his chest

You can feel his heartbeating fast

"I never liked Ale. She's not even my type
But when i saw you at lunch it seemed like you were fine with everything when I wasn't so i grabbed ale's hand and it just continued on
I know its the stupidest excuse but please y/n.."

You hear his voice shaking
You look up as you see he started to tear up
Your heart weakens and you pull him in for a hug

"Shhh...okayokay..." you say

You feel him hugging tighter and buries his face into your shoulder

To be continued....

HEHEHHEHE OKAY 💯💯 THE IS SMUT IN THE NEXT ONE NO CAP
IDK WHAT TO DO WITH ALE SHOULD I MAKE HER GO WITH MATTIA OR SHOULD I LET HER LIVE IN HER MISERY
THERE IS STILL GONNA BE DRAMA IN THE  NEXT CHAPTER THOUGH YOU GUYS DIDNT FORGET ABOUT SID RIGHT?HEHEHHE OKAY I TALK TO MUCH THANK YOU ALL FOR READINGGGG