Finding You

01

Lisa

I told mom I will be spending a month back in the province. She seems reluctant at first but I told her I will be fine. She even wants to come with me. I find it funny yet warm in the feeling as she is very worried about me. I know why she is like that.

I had a major car accident five years ago that almost took my life. It wasn't even my fault okay! Okay.. actually maybe half of it was my fault too. I was out with friends, drunk as fuck and then it was raining. On my way home, I crashed into a truck and boom, I woke up and then suddenly five years have passed.

I know right! Mind blowing. It's even more mind blowing that while in coma, I was dreaming about something weird. Like I am living as Lisa but very differently. In my dream, there's Jisoo, Roseanne, Jennie, and Seulgi. There is another girl that I do not know about. What's funny is that the girl who I do not know is my girlfriend and my dumbass bestfriend is her affair. It's all really weird. It feels like it's true but I have never met that girl nor ever seen her anywhere. I am so confused why she appeared in my dream like that and played a special role in my life.

Honestly, I have the urge to find her but it's hard since I cannot remember her name anymore. Shit right. I can remember her face clearly though and one thing I can say. She is so damn beautiful.

I really wanna meet her but it seems impossible.

Anyway, I am going back to the province where I spent my childhood because I wanna be away from stress for awhile. Work is stressing me out most specially since the girl I am in love with, a model, is already in a fucking relationship with another model. I was courting her before you know. But then I got into an accident and then suddenly they are together. You see, I am a photographer for their modelling company.

I am very salty about it. I dropped everything for her because I really like her and then suddenly she is with that man?

Oh and did I also mention that the man is one of my friends? Meaning he is a witness about how much I like his girlfriend. Tch.

I turned the radio on and simply listened to music in order to ease myself. I still feel incredibly upset about the fact that Jennie is already with someone else.. Aish. I need to stop thinking about her.

I hope the Jennie in my dream and the Jennie I love are just the same Jennie. So that she loves me too.

Dammit, Lisa! I said stop thinking about her. I furrowed my eyebrows and simply continued on driving. Soon enough, I am finally entering the province. I felt excited as I reminisce my moments here before. I met Jennie, Jisoo and Seulgi here. We were friends along with another girl named Joohyun. We couldn't stay here though since our life was in the city so Joohyun is left here all alone.

I can't remember much about how she looks before. My memory is very unclear. I don't know if this is because of the accident or because I am getting old already.

I pulled the car up and got off with a wide grin. I leaned my arm on my car as I examine the house I previously lived on back when I was young. Nothing has changed. It is still the same as before– okay maybe not. It actually looks older now. Probably because it has been years already since the last time I visited here.. maybe 15 years? Actually 15 years plus 5 more years since I was in coma for five years so technically it's been 20 years.

I took a picture of the house as well as the road we used to play at. Ah.. I remember a scene here. Jennie asked me to teach her how to ride a bicycle. So I did and when she almost fell, I caught her in my arms. That was when I knew I love Jennie. Yup. I was still young but already in love with her.

I entered the house and dropped my bags. Shit. There's a lot to clean here. Can I even clean all of these? Aigoo. I went down the basement to retrieve the mop and sweep, I tried to clean all of it but it's taking me a long time.