𝐵𝑖𝑘𝑒𝒓 [𝖧𝗈𝗇𝗀𝖾𝗎 𝗑 𝖸𝖾𝗈𝗇𝖽𝖺]

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Intro: a letter to him

Hi, again, i guess i'm writing you a letter today too...i don't know how many i've sent you this month...i always promise myself to stop sending them when you don't reply but then again, do you still receive them ? Did you ever receive even a single one? Anyway, how are you doing? I'm doing quite good...i guess, i graduated yesterday and you probably did too right? I remember how hard working you are! Did you manage to find new friends? I didn't...i miss you...and i wish you were by my side, no matter how much i talk with someone i end up thinking about you, if Hongjoong was with us he would love it too...always the same thoughts traveling through my mind, you...would it be selfish if i also wanted you to think about me? I tried calling you today...before writing this, but for the only purpose of listening to your voice, you changed your number...i should've saw it coming right ? There's this university i want to get in, the one we both loved...as soon as i gather enough money i'm going to South Korea and maybe have the chance to find a place there, i keep thinking of the 'what if' options, would we meet? Did you keep the same university dream? Would you be happy, mad, sad when you'll see me ?
I found myself a new hobby, biking. I love going around the town, getting myself some fresh air, i feel free whenever i do that, and it remind me of us, the time we spent together, you would always tell me "i''ll help you learn, i promise you!" I wonder if you would've been the one teaching me if i was still with you, i wish i could still hold on to your waist and enjoy the ride, i thought learning myself would make me happy, happy that there's something that connect us again but i find myself...crying...
You know i sometimes think, if i wanted i could find you, so how come i can't get myself to do it ? I may be scared...it's been 3 years...you probably changed, found new friends, forgot about me and maybe even have a girlfriend, that's why...i wanted to write this last letter, to let you know that i won't bother you anymore. I'm sorry....i've been such a nuisance haven't i...i love you Hongjoong...the time we spent together, although old, are precious to me, i'll never forget them and i hope you won't either.
Goodbye, please take care, from your old best friend? Park Jiwon.

The blond sighed putting down the pen, staring blankly at the paper in front of her. "Hoping to see each others again." She threw her head back looking at the sky in front of her, before turning to her motorbike, if only you were here too , she thought chuckling to herself, thinking at how stupid she must've sounded. "If only..."

𝖡𝗂𝗄𝖾𝗋, 𝖺𝗇 𝗁𝗈𝗇𝗀𝖾𝗎 𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝗒𝖾𝗈𝗇𝖽𝖺 𝖿𝖿.