Best friends with benefits: college szn

you'd never stop the show until you see the lights

G: "hey"

He says coming out of the window

K: "hey what's up?"

I say while I type on my computer

G: "do you think you can..like..I don't know..hang with Paige?"
K: "why?"

I look at him

G: "well she doesn't know you that well and she kinda thinks you're a bitch"
K: "I'll hang with her I guess. But if she starts being a little bitch I'll go ham on her"

I say sarcastically

G: "you wouldn't"

He says serious

K: "I'm kidding. Don't get your dick in a twist"
G: "so you're going to talk to her?"
K: "yea why not"

I close my laptop and follow gray to his window.

G: "hey babe so I'm going to hang with the boys. But Kacie wants to hang and know you a little bit better"
P: "umm. Sure"

She says nicely

Gray kisses her and goes off.

K: "so Paige"

I smile out.

The silence fills in the air.

K: "I'm sorry I don't really know you that well and you probably hate me"
P: "I don't hate you"
K: "you don't have to lie..gray has been very nervous about me and you not liking each other..we just need to talk more. And I don't have a lot of girl friends so I'm hoping you would be my first"

I smile out.

P: "yea. I would like that too"

We both smile at each other

P: "so you guys are really close huh?"
K: "yea"
P: "how close"

You know sex close.

K: "just best friends close"

With benefits

P: "how long have you guys been best friends?"

She's on to something I can feel it.

K: "my mom and his were- actually are best friends so we just been close since birth"

I smile out.

P: "oh..he never really told me that story"

She says confused as I nod my head trying to not make it awkward.

P: "can I ask you something?"
K: "sure"

I say smiling out

P: "katana-"
K: "she's a bitch"
P: "do you think he's cheating on me with her?"
K: "trust me I would kick his ass"

We both chuckle

P: "she made your life a living hell"

She says concerned

K: "yea...what other stuff do you know about"
P: "just how you guys are best friends and high school for you and him that's all"
K: "nothing else"
P: "nope"

I nod my head

P: "do you think he's cheating on me with another girl"

Shit shit shit shit shit shit.

K: "that I know of no..but if I find out he is. My foot would be in his ass"

We both laugh

The guilt rises up in me. She's a nice girl. She doesn't hate me or anything. But she know somethings up with gray. I thought she would be another katana..but am I her now. I didn't care when gray was dating katana cause I didn't like the bitch, but Paige is nice and very different from katana. I actually like her. She's very lucky and I'm ruining that.

K: "you really like him?"
P: "I think I'm in love with him"
K: "really"

I say shocked

P: "yea. Even though we only been dating for two months I just feel like we knew each other for years you know"

I nod my head.

P: "and I won't be mad when he goes off to your house. I now know he's not cheating on me with you or in general"

She gives out a small smile.

The guilt gets deeper and deeper in my stomach trying to hold the tears.

P: "are you ok?"

The tears come down all at once like a waterfall.

P: "I'm sorry if I offended you"

She says worried

K: "no no. It's not that"
P: "what is it then"

She says nicely

I can't do this anymore. She's too nice. She loves gray. I can't hurt her.

K: "umm I'm going to go"

I stand up and go to the window.

P: "umm ok? Bye"
K: "bye"

I sniff out

I go out of the window and into mine.

I stand there in my room trying to stop crying. I close my curtains quickly. And close my eyes for a second. I will always love gray but this benefits thing needs to stop. It's going to break nick and Paige.

?: "hey?"

I jump up and follow the sound.

G: "sorry"

He leans on the door

K: "you scared the shit out of me"
G: "so how did it go"

He comes in my room

K: "good..we didn't kill each other"

I smile out

G: "whats wrong?"

He wipes away my tears cuffing his hands on my face.

K: "she's nice"

I sniff out.

G: "I know"
K: "and she loves you"
G: "I know"
K: "we can't do this anymore"
G: "we were fine the last time"
K: "cause last time I was single and me and katana hated each other...now..me and Paige get along..and I have nick"
G: "I really am going to miss kissing you at night time"
K: "me too"

He closes the gap between us.

K: "you love her more don't you?"

I look at him. His face buries in guilt.

K: "I know I'm just a body you just want to fuck"

tears come out even more.

G: "she doesn't give it like you do..your body just rocks better with me"
K: "we need to stop doing this"
G: "don't do this again"
K: "what I'm a body for you gray"
G: "your mad because you're not my girlfriend..i love you ok"
K: "what kind? Like best friend or love that they take your breath away?"
G: "I..I don't know both"
K: "both is when their you girlfriend. I'm you side peace..we're going to hurt each other like we did the last time so let's just stop. You love Paige and I love nick"
G: "so that's it?"
K: "that's it"

He pauses and looks at me. He nods his head and walks off. Leaving myself there in my room all alone again. I sit on my bed and try to breathe. Closing my eyes making everything sinking. Even though we haven't dated why does it feel like we just broke up.