SB19 || Love Me Back

Chapter Five

Me: " I've always been amazed with technology ever since. And I know what you're thinking and you can call me nerd all you want but I really love how these stuff works. I was a software engineering student before in Columbia University I guess I already told you that before? " Tanong ko at nakangiting tumango naman ito. " Then I transferred here in Ateneo and became a Computer Engineer.  " 

Justin: " You must be very smart kasi diba Ivy League school ang Columbia University? Both of your parents are Surgeons that are based in the States and you grew up there. Bakit ka nag transfer? "  Curious niyang tanong. 

Napatigil ako sa tanong nito. Should I tell him? 

Me: " Eh di tayo nagka kilala? " I was smiling while saying that at nakita kong ngumiti rin ito. 

Justin: " Sige na.. Bakit nga?" Pangungulit parin niya.

Me: " Mahal kasi tuition dun... " Sabi ko nalang para manahimik na ito.

Justin: " I'm not buying it " Naka pout niyang sabi. Ang cute talaga ng Mais na to kaya kinurot ko ito sa ilong " Araay! Masakit yun ha! " Reklamo nito. " But Seriously, bakit nga? Both your parents are Surgeons so mayaman rin kayo sa States or lets just say Middle Class, so there should be a reason why you transferred. " Pangungulit parin niya. 

Na kyu-kyutan ako sa pagiging makulit nito but not this time. Gusto ko itong sakalin ngayon.

Me: " Ang tuition kaya dun eh 7M na dito sa Pinas! Just for 1 semester! And imagine ang laki ng matitipid ng parents ko kung dito lang ako nag college. " Exaggerated na sabi ko para maniwala ito because I'm not sure if I'm ready to tell him yet. Ma-iintindihan kaya niya? Or he will just judge me just like everyone else? 

Justin: " I feel like you don't trust me " Malungkot niyang sabi habang naka puppy face. 

I deeply sighed. Ang kulit talaga. 

Me: " My heart was broken 3 years ago. " Nilingon ko siya and he was staring at me intently. " But I'm OK now. " I smiled at him " Ang tagal na kaya nun. " 

Justin: " What happened? ' Seryosong tanong niya. Nahimigan ko ang concern sa boses nito. 

Nag pagkawala muna ako ng malalim na buntong hininga bago ko siya sinagot. 

Me: " I was in a relationship with my best friend at that time. I was still in second grade when my family decided to moved to the States. Morgan was my first friend, my first love, first boyfriend first everything. "  Sabi ko habang naka-tanaw sa labas ng bintana ng sasakyan. " His mom is a Filipina so he's half. One of the reasons siguro kaya nagkasundo agad kami.  We were happy. Well I thought we were. Everything changed when we went to College. He got accepted at Yale and I got accepted at Columbia. We were in two different States because Columbia University is in New York and Yale is in Connecticut. Then he fell in love with someone else. But you know what's funny? After everything, I  still begged him to get back together.  Akala ko kasi trial lang sa relationship namin yun.  " Mahina akong tumawa at nilingon ito pero seryoso parin itong nakatingin sakin.