Nannie's Diary

Chapter 7 : One More Chance

"You told me that you don't want to see me ever again and now you're here telling me you want to talk? Who are you kidding? Just go away! I don't want to see you!" Jennie shouted from the inside as she leaned her back against her closed door.

Jennie heard no response for long seconds. She thought she successfully sent Chaeyoung away but then a soft apologetic tone came, "I'm sorry..."

"What...?" Jennie was taken aback as for the very least, she was expecting Chaeyoung to argue back and exchange screams with her. Instead, she was given this sincere and calm tone.

Chaeyoung extended a hand onto Jennie's closed door as she goes on expressing softly and dipped her forehead against the door, "I said I'm sorry. You can hear me, right?"

"And why are you apologizing? After everything that you've told me, do you think it's that easy?" She reasoned and not letting her heart be influenced by just her voice.

"I know it's not easy but Ella told me everything. She already told me the truth." Chaeyoung exposed at once and Jennie was shocked she found none to return to her. "I realized I was so wrong for accusing you. I regret saying those things to you and my apologies may not be enough for you. I hurt you and it was wrong for me to do that. I'm so sorry..." She further said, close to a whisper so no one, not even the nearby tenants, would hear them talking.

Jennie was caught off guard as she let her words sink in slowly and attack her weak heart that once pumped loud for the musician. It didn't cross her mind that Chaeyoung would actually talk this way to her. Yet, however, Jennie's heart isn't completely ready to accept these words yet as her cold heart still takes over her.

"No..." Jennie stood firm in her belief and distanced herself farther from the closed door. She gulped big in order for her sensitive emotions not to blow up and ruin everything. She chewed so she can speak and ask strong, "Do you have an idea how much it hurt me when you accused me of kidnapping and committing a crime?"

"I'm sorry..." Chaeyoung frowned in guilt.

"I can accept your apology about the mess that happened in your place but your false accusations, it's still hard for me..." Jennie voiced and almost cracked as her fragile emotions are finding its way to burst.

Chaeyoung mumbles for herself to hear, sulking, "You also accused me of something I didn't want to happen... that hurts too..."

"Are you saying something out there?" Jennie raised an eyebrow and crossed her arms to act superior over her though she doesn't really face her.

"Nothing. I'm sorry." Chaeyoung again said and stayed immobile in her position.

Jennie sighs, "Anyway, I'm sorry too but I am not ready to accept your apology."

"Why?"

"As I said, it still hurts. I was so disappointed in you. I never thought that you could say such things even if it's out of your anger. Just when I was starting to think you're different than my first impressions of you, that you're actually nice and kind-hearted, maybe I was wrong at some point." Jennie expressed her reasons and breathed deep to contain herself.

Chaeyoung, lifted up her head as she utters in defense, "I said those things to you without thinking because all I had in my mind was to protect Ella. I was reckless and I'm sorry for that."

Yet Jennie stands her point, "No matter what the reason is, it was painful for me. Maybe for someone else who may be more understanding and not sensitive, they can easily forgive. But not for me, not this time that I'm so stressed, so exhausted and still feels damaged over your words. This isn't a movie, Park Chaeyoung. I'm just a woman who also gets hurt with words, may it be intentional or not."