Bertolt x reader (the beautiful pain)

We are friend arent we?

Since the last night, I honestly dont know you're important to me
I hugged myself, walking alone through the vacant building, everyone must still enjoying the party
"Y/n is that you"
I bet not everyone
I turned around and saw the tallest comrade in the top ten. My friend.

I still don't understand love, so I cannot get any closer.

"Hoover?" Oh finally I mentioned his name, after I avoid him.
Listen dear heart, He is my friend who always help me and he is just awarded in top ten, and I am so proud of him.

But why does my foolish heart keep pounding?

"what are you doing here? I thought you were at the party" he asked spontaneously, sounded so calm.
So i just have to keep acting like its nothing

Its strange but I dont need space from you

I just gave him a small smirk to respond, then I came near to him, with crossed my arm over chest I faced him, empowered over him,
"so you 'saw' me?"

I teased him, knowing he must be cursed at himself. I laughed at my bitch attitude, hard to rid off them from me. I continued
"I just hate crowd, plus I initially wanted to rest at the dorm, unfortunately, it was locked tho"
I stopped, realizing how focus he was, didn't he always act like this?
"So yeah, I don't join the party, and I could ask the same to you?" I smirked at my attack, then, I witness a rare  and unexpected sight of him, did he just smirk, I felt something inside me.

"well, I just need some fresh air, tomorrow is a big day, right?" I uncomfortably nodded, his word was true but why my heart acted like this, its nothing. He is just my friend

"yeah tomorrow is a really big day as the recruit soldier, and then suicide stuff, thank God, we don't have to encounter that scary bald old man"
we both throw a small chuckle. An idiot of me pretending its nothing, how stupid.

"hey Hoover congratulations for being in the top ten" I expanded my right hand with a proud smile I created on my face. Bertolt looked hesitant but he accepted my congratulation handshakes eventually. he hand was warm to hold,
Fool me
we both broke a satisfied grin as we retreat our both hand before a silence became the barrier between us.

"so Bertotl, what path do you wanna join? before u asked me the same question, I used  wanted to join the Brigade, but that seems not gonna be true, so I decided to join Garrison"

" I honestly don't know...Garrison sounds good to me, but Reiner wanted to join Liberty , so I think I will choose Liberty" He stopped for awhile, our eyes meet, he looked hesitant like he was trying to remember something " umm y/n where you are tomorrow? " suddenly Bertotl sounded serious, his face was kinda worry about something, that's make me curious
" I was assigned at the wall"
he wasn't pleased when I explain my assign location. did I say something wrong?.
"umm can you replace me, I was supposed at Sina, take care of something, but team members were all girl,and I.. you, I am lil bit shy around girls....."

"okay.. Sina? sounds good to me" maybe I could meet the officer there, so I could ask them to reconsider my position. " So, are you in green light?" He asked politely, maybe he was afriad if I will be uneasy with this. " well, yeah" I agreed with his offer. he gladly showing off his smile when I accept with offer, its there's more someting than being shy around girl, i mean that we just kissed yesterday, i mean he is the one who kissed me. Oh fuck.

" so about yesterday" Oh God, what the hell is wrong with my mouth, I thought we ( me and myself) dont want to discuss this anymore, you are just a selfish and stubborn right?
"we just happened to.."
immediately Bertolt panicked
" IM SORRY Y/N I DIDN'T MEAN TO"
"its okay Bertolt, i knew you never mean it" I said to reassure him, as both my hand attach to his,

And I let him go
Wth is happeningggg, so yeahhh, here another update