Dear Diary

Chapter 1

Suddenly, I hear footsteps behind me. I turn around. My brothers face is full of happiness like it always is. I mean, Im actually nearly blind but I feel happiness around my family and around people I love. Hello Evelin, Is everything okay? You look like youve seen a ghost. Do you smell that? Mum cooked something for us and- Stop! I scream. Mum? I smell nothing. I smell coldness. Im shaking Everything is moving so fast.

I scream.

Louder than I ever did.

My Head is burning, my eyes are burning. Everything burns.

Evelin, wake up! You dreamed. My dad is sitting next to my bed. He holds my hand and hes smiling. Dad, my eyes are hurting. Everything hurts! I sound like a little kid who tries to get his toy back. Come on get up. Its six PM. Hes leaving.

I stand up slowly. Well, I feel bad but thats not new. Evelin, come on you have to make dinner and look where you going. My grandmother is standing in the room and I didnt notice. That isnt funny. I can only see your outline, as you know grandmother. Maybe Its better like that, I think. But I dont say It. Anyways, come with me.

Why is Max not allowed to make dinner? Im nearly blind, respect that. Shes laughing now. What is so funny? Max is a boy as you know. He has to go outside to fight for our country one day. When the Germans come. He doesnt got time to cook.

Life is unfair. Suddenly I feel a hand on my dress. My grandmother attracts me to the kitchen. I have to cook potato soup today. The first challenge is to find all the things I need. After half an hour I have everything together.

Now I can start cooking. It takes me one full hour to cook the soup. After that I ask I Brother If he can get the table ready. That would be too dangerous for me. Finally my family comes and were ready to eat dinner. I hate eating dinner with my Family. No ones speaking and If we talk we talk about the world war. Better said, they talk about the world war.

But suddenly my brothers asking: So, how do you feel? I heard you dreamed bad. Actually very good. My headache is gone and in that way I feel well. Fine, thats good. The second smile I see today. Actually, all smiles I see are coming from Max.

After dinner I wash the dishes. Come on, Evelin, you must be very tired. Go to sleep now. Ill do the Dishes. My grandmother says. Is she really offers me that? I think she really does. Crazy day. I really have to go to sleep now.

Fine, good Night grandmother and thank you for doing that. She smiles at me. The third smile today! Im leaving the room. Good Night Evelin. My Father says. Good Night Father. I answer. Im going upstairs to my Room. Sleep is kind of underrated for me. Thats not very good for my health. It is like it is anyway. I slept not really much since my mother died. Thats why my circles are looking bad every day. I feel like the Germans will come soon to attack our land.

Ive written seven diarys in my life. All of them are full with stories that I always wanted to tell my family but never could. For example, one day I went to a field next to my house. I played there with my friends and everything was great. But then some older boys came and they frightened us. We ran away and hide in a little garden house. I was eight years old and it was a very big adventure for me. But no one wanted to hear it. Well, my mother wanted but she was very busy. So she couldnt hear to me. Thats why I write diarys. My diary always wants to hear my stories which I have to tell.

My mother was a very busy woman. She had to do very much in our house. Grandmother is living here since she died. My grandmothers name is Marina and actually, she is a very pessimistic woman. She has strict rules and if anybody wants to break them then It would have consequences. Shes the mother of my father. The parents of my Mother died five years ago but they didnt visit us often. So I didnt really had a big connection to them.

They were the opposite of my mother. Very quiet and always in a bad mood. As my father is. I inherited that from him. My brother is more like her. Hes the most optimistic Human in this world, after my mother is.

He still has much friends and he is often getting letters from them. He also had an love affair but then she went to Germany to get a job there. She said she would be better paid there. We never heard of her again since then. Thats been three years ago. All of Max friends went to Germany. But some of them are still writing letters to us. They say Germany is so good! Its like a paradise to us. Come, visit us with your family, Max! It would be good for you to take a journey to Germany! I dont really trust them. Maybe they are under arrest and the policemen told them to write letters like that to friends.

All of the tourists this year went to Germany because friends wrote letters like this to them. Im getting tired of thinking. Maybe I should just sleep now.