Sylvia's Present
Everyday is orgasmic torture. I wake up in his room. I go downstairs to his kitchen. I look out of his window. I dance along to our memories.
Reality and the past blurs.
My love, my life. My past.
Days pass. I miss you like the first day. I miss you like I missed you when you took your lips away from mine that first time.
Isaac tells me it's fucked up, that I have to move out right now. I tell him I don't want to be happy without you. I don't know how long I can make him stay. Maybe he'll kill himself too. He's stuck on me like I'm stuck on you. I still don't see how you've tainted me. You broke me, like you break glow sticks. I'm dead without you. I bet you think because I can't touch another man that I'm broken. That that's your fault. It's no one's but mine. I love you too hard. I let Isaac sleep with me. I cry out in pain every time. Afterwards he gets up and he gets angry. He likes getting angry over me. Just like you.
My love, I hope I don't dishonour your memory.
You're not here.
I need someone.
Isaac doesn't give up.
I can live in a divided state.
You are my past.
He is my present.
I own my future.
I know that now.
So neither you nor Isaac can tell me what to do.
I could move on. You'd like that. Not yet.
I need to make us pay for what we did.
My love, my life.
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21 Brook Street
Short StorySometimes things that shouldn't happen... happen. Sometimes the most twisted of things are the most beautiful. Sometimes you just can't move on.