I'm gonna have a fucking mental breakdown, what the fuck? How much more can I handle? How can a fucking place make someone feel so stressed and insecure and not happy? What the fuck can I do with all those things going on, with me only feeling able to just watch and not do anyting but undergo it all. At times like this, I just feel despaired with thoughts about how much more I have to go through and... even if i know that one day I'll quit this all, I want to be happy but before all I want to know what is my hapiness of course, I want to know me more than anything else and do, finally do what I want and how I want it. We all have the chance to be alive, to feel, to be, why can't we enjoy all the rights we have... I feel just so much right now, I don't know what to think and do but follow what I'm told to do because guess what, I don't have a fucking thing to say about it... But I'll be okay, I will.
