Her Greatest Downfall

Chapter 30: I love you

"Nandito na tayo." Anunsyo ni Ram.

Bumaba ako at saka luminga sa paligid. The green grass on the floor, the green tall trees were dancing on air, there's a few people around and they all doing a picnic.

He smiled at me and he held my hand. I am looking to him while we were running towards the place that he wanted to stop.

Huminto kami sa pagitan ng dalawang malaking mga puno. Inilatag nya ang blanket roon at naupo kami pareho roon.

"Di pa ako nakakapag-picnic sa buong buhay ko." Komento ko.

It's true that it's my first time. I haven't done this before. I haven't do this with my family before. I grew up without the attention of my parents. All I have is my brother and I still remember how I planned to ruin my brother's wedding last year.
I don't like the idea that he's marrying a woman. Kasi alam ko na sa oras na ikasal sya, mawawalan na ako ng tunay na kaibigan. He's my bestfriend. Hindi ako kailanman nakipagkompetensya sakanya kahit pa lagi sakanya nakapabor si Dad, he's an ideal son and an ideal boyfriend, and most of all, he's an ideal brother.

"Magugustuhan mo itong gawin, atleast ngayon, kasama mo ako." He commented and I smile.

"Nagugutom ka na ba?" Tanong ni Ram

Umiling ako.

"Sure ka?" He ask and I nod as an answer.
Nahiga ito sa blanket at kanyang inunan ang kanyang kanang braso.

I watch him every his single move. I admire him so much.

"Pede magtanong?" Tanong ko sakanya. Tinignan nya ako.

"Ano iyon?" He ask

"Si Diego, galit ka ba sakanya?" Tanong ko.

"Hindi naman." He answered.

"But you're acting so cold whenever you're with him." I answered.

"Ganoon talaga, Ace. Kapag ang taong minsang sumira sa plano mo ay mahirap itong patawarin, napatawad ko sya ng buo, Ace. Pero hindi na maibabalik pa ang dati." Sagot nito.

Gaya nya ay nahiga rin ako. Pero hindi gaya nya ay hindi ko inunan ang aking braso.

"G-Gusto mo ba si Diego? I mean as a friend." He asks.

"Mabait si Diego. Masaya syang kasama." Sagot ko

"Kaya pala." He said

"Kaya pala? Ano?"

"Kaya pala sinabi mo na kung kaya mo lang mamili ng gugustuhin, sya ang gugustuhin mo at hindi ako." Anito at may bahid ng kalungkutan ang boses nito.

"Nasaktan mo kasi ako." Sagot ko.

Tumagilid ito ng higa kaya nakaharap sya saakin. Ang kanang braso nito ay nakatukod sapo-sapo ang ulo nito.

"Sorry." He said

I chuckled. "Manhid ka kasi." Natatawa kong wika.

"Hindi ako manhid." Sagot nya.
Hindi ako sumagot.

"Ano iyong nararamdaman mo nang unang tayong magkita sa bar. I mean, you know I am so aggressive." I said in a low tone.

I heard him chuckled.

"Iyong totoo?" He asks and I feel my heartbeat beat so fast. Oh my gosh, what kind of power Ram has to make my heart beat like this?.

"O-Oo, iyong totoo lang." Sagot ko kinakabahan.

He look at me and I couldn't look into his eyes.

"Ayoko sayo." He said

I felt the pain on my chest and later I feel numb at this very moment.