When I enter the hospital I felt like something just entered into my body, I felt deep pain... but it felt like it was far away from me... but when I took steps closer to her room, I felt it was running towards me....
When I entered her room, she was sleeping.
God.
How someone can look like that? exhausting but beautiful. She was breathtakingly pretty even when she was left with few breaths.... she was looking like a godess, maybe that's why God was taking her a way from me. ?
So, this was the hardest part, watching her die everyday in front of me.... that was breaking me into peices, it was sucking my soul from my body, it was like with every breath someone was stabing my heart with needles...
so let me tell you, what was actually happening to me, to her. Lanahads leukemia... which is actually cancer of blood. She stopped taking her chemotherapy sessions because she knew it that now it's not upto doctors.
I forced her to change her decision, but she broke my heart when she said " I don't want to live on false hopes everyday, I know I'm gonna die, I want to make my every breath count"
I did everything for her. From her 1st to last wish. I listened to everything, but today I'll do one last thing, my wish, my very last wish with her.
I walked towards her, she was lying there like she was sleeping peacefully, her head was covered in the yellow hat, which had brown flowers, like her eyes, I couldn't see them at that time, but I couldn't forget them ever. They are the only thing that don't let me have a complete breakdown because they tell me that she is alive.
Her skin was the colour of the soil, flawless, & beautiful. under her eyes, there were darkcircles, but that doesn't affect her beauty in the slighest way, her lips were half open, & her lips had a light shade of pink.
I was mesmerized by her beauty, when I first met her, her smile caught my attention, her loud laugh at the corridor of our high school, she was not the kind of girl that people die for, she was the kind of girl people would live for.
That's what I'm doing.
. She was that chubby girl, that no one would turn to look back, but I never turned my face from her. She was never the spotlight of our school but she was the only light in my life, but she was the kindest girl. I'm glad I made her laugh with my lamest jokes.
I kissed her forehead & remembered my first kiss, our first kiss.
When my lips touched her skin, I felt currents, erupting from my lips,down to my stomach... I stared at her closed eyes, & I knew soon that would be the worst sight to see.
