A life without love is not really a life at all
It's always hard to stand, when you're too afraid to fall
My back's against the wall, my world is getting small
Then what do you know; it is you that I call, so were...
Back in the same position
Back with the same decision
Back again, but this time, nobody listens
It's happens so often, it's bound to get old
It's easy to fall in love, but it's difficult to let go
And we both know, that'll never be an option
Too deep in love to dig ourselves out from the bottom
With out you I can't manage, so you always take advantage
Why do people take the best things in life for granted?
The games that we are playing are the same ones we are losing
And there's other guy's and girl, but each other we keep choosing
What the hell are we doing? We're leaving us smothered
Push each other to the gutter, so we never love another
I know you ain't good for me,I ain't good for you either
But no matter what we say, I know you need me like I need ya'
So what the hell do you do when you're too blinded to care
That the person of your dreams turns to your nightmare
You keep acting so naïve, saying I'm not who you need
Then you drop down to your knees, and plead for me not to leave
You tell me that you love me, then you tell me that you hate me
Then you calling me your problem, then you calling me your baby
And lately it feels like, my whole world is going crazy
I love that you can change me, but I hate what you have made me
Sacrificed all of my pride, just to have you by my side
But the truth always hurts, when you're living a lie
But I, don't even care, my heart won't ever listen
Love is just a word, but you bring it definition
I don't wanna see you go, I don't wanna have you stay
I don't wanna live tomorrow, if I can't have you today
its been a few weeks since me and luke got in that fight infront of the police station i havent heard from him since he told me he hated me.
so when saturday rolled around i was curious if he would show up or not. the boys have called him and invited him but he proboly will come up with an excuse just like the week before.
when ashton walked in he had a hard look on his face hes been distant since we picked luke up from the police station. almost like he wants nothing to do with me i havent asked im scared of his answer i already lost luke loosing ashton would be almost to much to handle i cat stand the thought of him walking around hating me.
but i had to grow up eventually and ask him what was wrong maybe tonight was the night i needed to stay calm and not worry to much ashton loves me and theres not alot that can change that.
i grabbed his arm dragging him into the kitchen.
"are you mad at me" i asked he wouldnt look at me
"hey, look at me" i begged putting my hand on his cheek "please"
he finally looked down "how long has it been going on" he asked i looked confused
"how long has luke been sneaking into your room to "hold you just one more time" he was pissed i could tell.
i laughed out of fustration slapping my hand against my forhead
"jesus christ ashton, thats what your mad about" i groaned
"you let him hold you at night while i was working to get you the things you want" he shouted i flinched and tears filled my eyes ashtons never yelled at me before
"im not going to hold you while you cry over luke anymore, we're done" i started to panic he cant do this to me.
"no no no no no no" the only words i could get out of my mouth
he left the kitchen taking my heart with him as i collapsed to the ground calum left an hour ago to go get pizza for tonight and pick up his girlfriend so i was alone.
i picked myself up and made it to the house phone i dialed lukes number hes always been my hero
it rang twice before he finally answered "look calum, i told you i wasnt coming tonight"
"luke" i cried into the phone loosing it completley
"annie, are you alright" he asked quickly
i let out a chocked sob as an answere "im on my way" and with that the phone went blank he may say he hates me but i can call him for anything.
he didnt even nock he just barged in i was still on the floor in the kitchen im sure my mascara was running down my cheeks.
L.U.K.E p.o.v
my phone rang from my pocket ive told calum a million times im not coming tonight i didnt want to see annie.
"look calum, i already told you i wasnt coming tonight" i sighed into the phone
"luke" it was annie it sounded like she was crying
"annie are you alright" i asked grabbing my keys from the chair and running out the front door she let out a loud sob letting me know that she wasnt alright. i told her i was on my way
when i got there she was on the floor in the kitchen with her back against the wall mascara was running down her cheeks.
"do you really hate me" she whispered and began to cry again i plopped down next to her
"remember in highschool when you thought i was mad at you, and i told you that you could hit me with a moving car on purpose and i would still love you just the same" i asked
her head turned to face me "you remeber that" she smiled a bit
"ofcourse, i remeber everything that ever happened, you wanna know why" i asked
she nodded
"because you were the greatest thing that ever happened to me and i wanted to remeber every single moment"
she looked down at her feet
"i hate talking about that, because i know you dont love me anymore" she said
"so tell me what happened, why are you crying" i asked changing the subject
"ashton broke up with me" she said and started crying all over again i pulled her into my lap wrapping my arms around her as she cried into my shoulder.
i wasnt sure what to say so i just held her.
its been like this for as long as i can remeber
we fight more than we get along, sometimes i hate her more than i love her but nothing in this world can ever take away the feeling i get when im around her.
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your in my veins // l.h
Fanfiction"falling in love is the easiest thing you are ever going to do. its the most exciting and its the most powerful that's why falling out of love hurts like hell, but falling in love, there's nothing better"
