forget about me // daisuga ♡ [completed]

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--» 6/13
[ 4.11 pm ]
[ Point of view: Sugawara Kōshi ]

I had just been reading one of my new books, when I received a call. I starred at the phone I got for my birthday so it was easier to hide from Daichi. I saw Asahi was calling. I wondered what's wrong and took the call, he always told me about Daichi since I told him to check on him regularly.

» Suga? «
» Yes, it's me. What's wrong? «
» He lied! He lied all the time! «
» Who? Asahi, what's wrong? «
» You told me to check on Daichi, and I did. He always told me he's doing okay and he's moving on with life, just as you wanted him to. But he lied! He drinks, he's on serious pills and probably hurts himself. «
» Wait, what? «
I jumped out of my bed. Good thing I came along with my artificial leg well now.
» I had to call an ambulance, Suga. He was about to end it all, he called and told me. «
» Oh my god... I need to see him right now! This can't happen, I won't let him die! «
» Suga, he thinks you're buried six feet under! You can't just appear in front of him! «
» If he drank he won't think I'm real! So I can tell him everything he needs to know and disappear again. «
» No! You need to stop faking your death! You are alive and he deserves to know that! He went through hell the past three months. If you appear and disappear again, he will go through all of this again and again! Don't you see he just needs you? «
» Asahi, I wanted him to forget about me! I don't want him to need me! If he looks at me, he will always see what he's done and feel guilty and I don't want anyone's pity anymore! «
» But you can't change it! If you want him to live and be happy, you need to tell him the truth. I don't want you to feel guilty, but he tries to commit suicide because he thinks he's with you in heaven then! I want you to be honest, to finally confess to him, to live together with him and be happy! A lot of people already were able to make it, so you can do it too! But you need to stop lying! «
» Asahi, you don't get it! I faked my god damn death! How do I explain this to him? «
» By telling the truth! Do you really think he will be mad? He will be glad you're alive! «
» Are you serious? He went through hell because I lied to him... «
» Suga, come outside. I'm waiting for you in the car, I'll drive you to Daichi's home. I can't stand this anymore. If you don't tell him the truth, I will. «
» Okay, I will! But... Do we really need to... «
» Oh, I forgot. Yes, we do need to drive or we won't be fast enough. You can close your eyes if you want to, but you know you'll have to drive more often in your life. I know you can do it, just don't think about it. I will drive carefully. «

I ran outside and hung up as I saw Asahi. I jumped into the car and Asahi started to drive. I always had a look at everything and when a car was too close, I closed my eyes. It was hard to drive after an accident in which you lost half of your body. But Asahi was a good friend. He calmed me all the way and we finally reached Daichi's home, even before the ambulance. I got out of the car.
» Are... You coming with me? «
» No, you need to do this on your own, Suga. I will wait here and explain the details to the ambulance. «
I nodded and closed the door of the car. Then, I opened the door, I didn't even knock anymore. Daichi's mother stood in the kitchen and was just cooking dinner.
» Oh my lord! Suga, what are you doing here, Daichi is home! «
» I'm sorry for coming in without knocking before. But the ambulance will explain, just go outside and let them talk to you. «

Then, I ran upstairs where Daichi's room was. Good thing I knew this house as well as if it was mine, I'd been here a million times already.

The door was widely opened. I breathed in and out and entered the room. On the floor behind the door, I saw him. He was lying on the floor, his eyes closed, but smiling. He only wore his underwear. When I saw his body, I started to cry. Cuts and scars were spread everywhere on it, a huge scar was on his right thigh, but it was probably because of the accident. The scar he told me about in his letter.

But the worst thing for me to see was his left thigh. He cut two words into it that I never wanted to read on a body.
" Sorry Suga ", it said. I couldn't take it anymore. I fell down to my knees, right in front of him.

» Daichi? Can you hear me? «
His eyes fluttered, but he didn't answer.
» Daichi, I'm here! It's me, Suga! Please answer! «
He carefully opened his eyes. They were red and puffy from crying. I had never felf this bad in my life before.
» Am I in heaven already? «, he answered. And god, his breath smelled as if he didn't drink anything else than alcohol for two weeks.
» N-no, Daichi, listen. You are alive. And so am I. We both are alive, do you hear me? «
» Yeah, you're pretty good at joking. Suga has been dead for three months now. So tell me the truth, you're not real. No, you're not real. You are just a memory stuck in my head. Now, if you excuse me, I'm about to die. «
» Daichi, this isn't funny! I'm real! I didn't die, I just decided to fake my death so you can move on. «
» Wow, you're a pretty good liar too. Doesn't matter, it's nice talking to a fake. Better than nothing, I guess. «
His eyeballs started rolling and I realised he was drifting out of consciousness.

» No, this isn't happening! Daichi, you aren't going to die. Not today, not as long as I'm alive. Come on, wake up, don't leave me now! «
I slapped him in the face. And again and again, but he didn't wake up for longer than two seconds.
I grabbed his wrist and checked his pulse. His heart beat way too fast and his breath was flat and short. He sweated everywhere and foam came out of his mouth.
» Daichi! Stop, you aren't going to leave me! I'm sorry, please! «
I didn't know what to do. I tried to keep him awake, he couldn't fall asleep. If he did, I feared he wouldn't wake up anymore.
I hoped the ambulance was coming fast.

» It hurts... «, Daichi said suddenly and bent. His face was turning dark red, he cried, sweated and he spit foam and blood, too.
» Don't worry, you'll be okay. I'm here, just don't fall asleep. I'm here, do you listen? «, I said loudly and held his hand.
» Suga, the letter... «
» Yes, I read it! My mum gave it to me this morning. «
» No, not that one. Take the one on the desk. It's for you. «
» No, not now! I won't leave you! «
» Suga, I love you. I don't want you to end up the same as me. So please, move on. Get yourself a wife or husband and just live your life. Do it for me, because I can't anymore. «
» I love you too, but you won't leave me like I left you. You will survive, do you listen? And then, you are going to be my husband and we will move on together. «
» You heard me. I won't be around much longer so promise me to stay the way you are. I'm sorry, Suga. «
His eyes closed again.
I couldn't stop crying. He didn't breathe anymore, his heart stopped beating.

Finally, the ambulance came in. They picked Daichi up and brought him into the hospital. I wanted to come with him, but Asahi held me back.
» He'll make it, okay? We'll wait for him. I'll drive you to the hospital. «
I nodded compliantly.
All I could do was to hope.