Searching For You

Chapter 43: Free

Ben's POV:

After I grab the sabers from underneath Rey's skirts, I stand to my full height and watch a scene I wish never existed. My blood boils as I watch Seth and Hux kiss my girl all over her body. Rey has a look of pleasure on her face but I'm getting the sense of distress and discomfort from her through the bond. "NO!" I scream as the force starts to rush around me with such intensity it's causing the walls to crack. I use the force and violently snap both Hux's and Seth's necks, their dead bodies following to the ground instantly. Rey turns to me with a look of surprise and fear in her eyes. "Kylo?" She whispers as she slowly backs away from me. "I'm Sorry" I whimper as I reach towards her with shaky hands. I know Klyo Ren did unspeakable things to her, things she still had nightmares about. Ben Solo could never repay enough for all of those things. Seeing the look of horror and fear in Rey's eyes cemented that fact. "I would never..." I start as I walk towards. She backs away, till she can't anymore due to her back pressing against the wall. My heart breaks knowing I am causing her this pain. I place my shaky hands in hers as she looks away from me, "Klyo Ren is dead... your love him... your love for others... and your devotion to bringing me back killed him. I'm so sorry for what he did... What I did to you my love. I don't deserve your forgiveness but as long as I'm alive I will work for it." I continued. I opened our bond and allowed my emotions to flood from me to her; all my pain, all my anger, all my love, all my jealousy, and my undying need to protect her. I placed a kiss on her knuckles as tears filled my eyes. I only hope she will understand why I did what I did. I know Klyo Ren will always be a part of my past that I can't run from. "I'm sorry... I am not used to being able to fully trust anyone." Rey cries and it breaks my heart. I pull her close and press a kiss into her hair right before our connection breaks.

I hand Rey's saber over to Finn and he just stares at me. "I didn't know you guys could pass things through your bond." He says and I let out a light chuckle. Surprised that's the only thing he comments on after witnessing my half of our conversation. The doors open at that moment and we start guiding as many people we can to the Falcon as we can. Finn heads to the back of the group and I lead the way. As we leave I see Poe passed out on the floor with an empty syringe in his neck, I pull it out noticing it label stating it was the antiserum. I can't help but feel proud of Rey. I am still upset with her for not allowing me to help her with this by staying at her side but proud of her nonetheless. I throw Poe over my shoulder and I let out a slight giggle, I realize that her acting without a foolproof plan is the one part of my father that has rubbed off on her in the short amount of time they had together. Everyone finally makes it to the Falcon but I don't see Rey anywhere. I start to panic and look around for her, I see her in the distance at the forest's ridge fighting off many stormtroopers. I hand Poe off to someone and then yell at Finn to get everyone settled as I run to get Rey. He nods in reply and we split up.

Rey's POV:

I am not sure how much longer I can keep this up. I am struggling more than I thought since I am still extremely uncomfortable using this double-bladed lightsaber. I was going for the kill when one of them when they knock the saber out of my hands. I'm defenseless beside the force, I stand my ground and force push as many I can back but they just keep coming. A large group of stormtroopers goes flying backward and I feel someone grab my hand, they start dragging me backward. I look to see it's Ben. I knew I hurt him badly and if I was honest with myself, I wanted him to leave me here so he could get himself and others safely out of here. "You came for me?!" I say surprised and ecstatic. "I told you, I can't lose you again" He shouts. I use my free hand and concentrate on the force to start up the Falcon as we are being chased by stormtroopers. We barely make it on the ship before they can catch up to us. We scramble to the cockpit and start the flight home. I breathe a sigh of relief as soon as we are at hyper speed. I put the ship on autopilot and all I want to do is relax, but Ben picks me up out of my seat and kisses me, hard. "Don't ever do that to me again. From now on we do everything together, not apart. You scared me to death. Deal?" I look up at him to see the tears in his eyes and it hits me just how much I scared him exactly. I start to cry as well. "I'm so sorry Ben, I was so focused on protecting everyone I forgot to consider you in this. I'm so sorry Ben I... I...I didn't ..." I get interrupted by him pulling me close to his chest and running his fingers through my hair. "It's okay, we're alright, we're together now."