Make Her Mine In 50 Days

Chapter 4

Chapter 4
Trap

I was gritting my teeth as I walked my way to the café where Sean and I are about to meet.

Nervousness keeps on running through my veins, thinking that what if he is with Sandra. I haven't seen her for two years. But seeing her should be none of my concerns. I'm just here to sign the papers and only that.

Buo na ang desisyon ko. Buo na ang loob ko. Paninindigan ko 'to.

My heart won't stop beating fast as I wait for Sean's arrival, that didn't last long. When I saw him entered the café alone, without anyone with him, my heart immediately calmed down.

She didn't come. Of course, she won't. What am I expecting?

Sean wandered his gaze around the whole café before he finally found me. Wala naman siyang inaksayang panahon at agad na lumapit patungo sa'king kinauupuan.

"How are you?" Sean started the talking as soon as he sat in front of me.

"Just go and get straight to the point, Sean." sabi ko at pinatigil na ang kaniyang gustong pakikipagkamustahan. "Let's not act like we're okay, when the truth is we're not."

I don't mean to be rude. Sadyang ayoko lang na patagalin o unti-untiin pa ang kahihinatnan ko sa pag-uusap namin na 'to.

Napabuntong hininga naman siya bago diniretso ang kaniyang tingin sa akin.

"Look, Brendt..." panimula niya. "What happened two years ago, it's already fine with me. Wala na sa akin 'yon."

Hindi ko alam kung ano ang dapat sabihin sa kaniya kaya naman tinitigan ko na lamang siya at muling hinintay na magsalita.

Should I tell him that it's also fine with me when I'm not? Of course, he would be fine. He has Sandra and Lyrae with him, while I'm left with nothing. Hindi ko rin masabi na wala na para sa'kin ang nangyari dahil inaamin ko sa sarili ko na hanggang ngayon ay may natitira paring sakit mula sa nakaraan.

He took a deep breath before placing a brown envelope and a fountain pen at the top of our table.

"The papers for the petition of changing Lyrae's surname are there. I've already completed all the requirements kahit noong nasa America pa kami." he said and I just stared at the brown envelope that will completely cut my connection to Sandra and, especially to Lyrae. "If we will be able to get your signature, it will be easier for us to change her surname. Medyo nahirapan kami dahil sa conditions ng pagpapapalit ng apilyido ni Lyrae. But, nagawan naman ng paraan ni Ashley."

Once I sign those papers, it means I'm already letting go of everything. I don't know why I'm thinking twice right now. The reason why I called him here is because I'm ready to let everything go. Pero tuwing babalikan ko ang mga nangyari, kahit masakit ay ayaw kong bitawan.

Ngayong nandito na siya sa harapan ko ay parang nawala ang lahat ng lakas ng loob na naipon ko para mabitawan na ang lahat.

"In less than a month or two, I'm going to marry Sandra again." bigla namang sabi ni Sean na dahilan kung bakit ako muling napaangat ng tingin sa kaniya. "I'm planning a surprise wedding for her. I want to give her as a gift... that Lyrae will be under my family registration. She's a Sarmiento. 'Yan ang nananalaytay sa dugo ng anak ko. Once and for all, I'm her biological father. Ipaglalaban ko ang dapat kong ipaglaban kahit gaanong kahirap pa, mabigay lang kay Lyrae ang dapat na sa kaniya."