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of names and users // rambles

25/12/2019
idk if anyone is interested in this, but basically this is just an explanation of my time here in wattpad and how things have changed for me as a user.

so i made this wattpad acc on 2014 solely for the use of reading KHR fanfics. Originally, i didn't want to make an account, but the mobile ver of wattpad only allows you to use it with one. So i was like fine, take my username and lemme read.

and so, i started my wattpad journey with the username @Shirozoku.

eventually after reading a while, i got the inspiration to write my own fanfic as well, which led to the creation of my now-unpublished book, The 7th Guardian.

Truth be told, that book sucks shit so bad, with bad writing flow and major plot holes (which is why I unpublished it now). But during the early days of my writing, I really did enjoy writing it even if not many people read it. I even made a few friends (wow surprise) during those days, which honestly, thinking back on it, made me really happy. Kudos to you guys, idk if you're still active in wattpad or not though so i won't tag anyone (just know i really do love you!!)

But then, as my writing style grew and changed, i started disliking my book further. I tried to continue writing it as I did still have plans for it, but I couldn't bring myself to. The disparity in my old and new writing style, bundled with shit ton of school work and diminishing motivation for khr, led to a writing block and eventually, an infinite hiatus for me as a writer.

It got hard for me to continue the book, so I disappeared altogether from Wattpad. Not going to lie, i am ashamed of this whole thing, but i left that book behind for like 1-2 years. I only went online in wattpad to occasionally read other people's books, but never touched my own.

Weirdly enough though, my book grew during my absence, with more people voting and commenting on it (i'd like to thank them all for sticking through such a bad book). The new readers gave me a bit of motivation to try continue, and i did for like 1-2 chapters, but then again i was still stuck in the same situation, so i ran away again.

Fast forward to 2018, i remember sitting on a couch at home and decided to try writing a oneshot, which led to the creation of Sonder. And then i realized then, oh fuck, i actually still can write about KHR.

It was a big moment for me, and the start of my new journey to say the least.

I tried to make a new book based on The 7th Guardian, but that too didn't work out, but that's a story for another time.

I decided to revamp my username to my current one, @-kirayamei, simply because it marked a new beginning for me. Although the revamp didn't come immediately after i wrote Sonder. In fact, i just did the revamp like early this 2019.

After contemplating about it for a while, i decided that i didn't want to associate myself with my old self as Shiro of @shirozoku, when all i did was run from writing.

So now i'm mei, of @-kirayamei. Even as mei, i'm still not the most active wattpad user (the reason why also a story for another day), but i still do better as a writer now than then.

even if people think my account is mostly dead, or if my books aren't popular, i'm happy with how far i've come. i've just come around to writing what i enjoy whenever i feel like it and try myself to write what others would enjoy in this fandom.

i think for now that's enough for me