Overdue | P.JM.

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i was going to start my life, a new chapter, a new place. it was foreign but i liked it. back then, everyone, i mean everyone knew who i was. it was tiresome, i wanted to lay low and just be a shadow in the background. sadly, that wasn't the case.

flashback

"did you hear about what happened to Aila, i heard that she only hangs out with the guys at our school to get with them"

"yeah, i don't really like her, she's too close with all of them. i mean, it benefitted her right"

i overheard as i had my headphones in, but they were not plugged in. all i know was that it was a living hell.

the bell rang, signaling that class was now over. thank you Jesus, i can finally leave and go on with the rest of my day.

i walked out of the classroom with my backpack and actually plugged my headphones in. i was senior in high school and all i wanted was to move somewhere where no one knew me, to make a new name for myself without having rumors spread like a wildfire.

suddenly you felt an arm on your shoulder. your best friend Park Jimin.

he was the only one who could keep you from actually going insane from the rumors, people, and just school in general. we met our sophomore year in English. I was a transfer student who didn't know anyone, i walked into the classroom feeling anxious and scared. everyone already had their friend group, so i was the new girl.

i sat at a table where i thought no one would sit, just because it was in the corner and i wanted to be unknown. i closed my eyes and took a deep breath, thinking "it's going to be a long day".

then a high pitched screeching noise was made, i quickly opened my eyes and i see this boy pulling out a chair from the table and sitting down in it.

me, being the new girl, i didn't ask any questions.

sooner or later, we became best friends. he was known as the school's heartthrob. every girl, i mean every girl was head over heels for him. i'm not going to lie, but i have a crush on him, no i like him. i don't know when they developed, but it just kind of happened.

i knew he didn't feel the same way though. so i was just like every other girl.

a fantasy that we'd wish would come true.

flashback ends

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present day

you didn't tell Jimin that you were leaving to a different city because you were afraid that he might come with.

Jimin is not a hard guy to explain, but it was difficult. easy yet hard.

he was known as a heartthrob for a reason. he was the type of guy that could swoon you over just with his eyes. he was the type of guy that could make you fall in love in milliseconds with his caring and kindness. he was the type of guy that loves hard for the people he cares about. everyone knew that.

he was my impossible guy. the guy i could like and be close with but could never be in a relationship with.

from the time i've known him, he's only dated one girl. we won't talk about her but they were perfect for each other. like a match made in Heaven. it was crazy to know that they broke up.

yes, i have feelings for him, but i'm fine as long as he's happy with me being in his life, even if i'm not the one for him.

also, my parents passed in a car accident. i don't have anyone besides Jimin but i don't want to spend my life thinking that i'm a burden and just always relying on him.

i'm eighteen, i live on my own and Jimin's family helps me with my situation. I had to grow up.

Jimin and his parents offered their home to stay in, the incident of my parents happened last year. i wasn't in the car with them when it all happened. i don't like to talk about it but only Jimin and his parents know.

i kindly rejected the offer because Jimin was already doing so much for me by just being my friend. i needed to understand the world and live by myself. so that's what i did. i moved to someplace smaller than my original home because i couldn't pay rent. i moved all the memories into a storage unit that i pay for. at least they'll be there for comfort when i need it.

i lived in a small apartment just near the school, Jimin and his parents help with rent because they know my situation, i was glad that offered to help. they said that they'll help out because Jimin's friends mean so much to him. his parents support him and helped me out.

i'm so very thankful for every single one of them, words can't even explain it.

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i was moving and time was short. i needed to leave before Jimin found out. i told his parents what i was doing and i saved up enough money to go to a different city. to start a new chapter in my life, i needed to make sacrifices. i didn't want to be the reason that Jimin decides to need to be with me. i wanted him to be free.

it was finally going to come true. letting go of the love of my life.