~Phils POV~
I looked threw the semi-big hole in my wall i created. It held all my razors and pictures I kept for memories. This is a hole Im not proud of making, but I cant help it.
I finally got my blue razor. It gave me a slight cut on my finger but i didnt care. I brought up my arm and looked at it.
So many self harming scars scoured my arm. But, self harming is very addictive so I couldnt do anything about it, and telling people would just make matters worse. I sighed and found a place for the new cuts.
I slowly cut a line into my skin, hissing slightly since it stings like hell. I continued this process for a while.h
I placed down the razor and grabbed a napkin. I placed it over the new wounds and let it soak up all the blood. After a few minutes it stopped bleeding and i continued on with my day.
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"Okay, Phil you know Dan right..?" Victoria said in a very posh way. I nodded.
"Wellllll, hes coming over so dont fucking make a fool out of me!" She growled at me. I flinched and nodded again. She then smiled, her deep dimples showing. "Your such a good little brother...not." She whispered as she left the room.
I waited till I couldnt hear her footsteps anymore and cried into my sweater.
She was the reason why I am the way I am. What did I ever do to her?!
Ugh, never mind that.
But Dan.. Is coming and..
Ugh
I love him so much...
Hes the reason I still breathe and live on this earth, even though I am constantly put down for being... Phil..
I sighed again, feeling the stress flood my mind. I wanted to cry again but this time I had no more tears to let out.
This is my life, fucking awful..
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A Simple Smile, A Billion Scars ( Phan ) *On Hold.
Fanfiction-ANGST WARNING- If you do not like any of the following please do not read. -Self-harm -Cheating -Depressing -Smut -Abuse ~ Phil Lester, a boy who fell in love with Dan Howell. But Dan was married to a woman named Victoria, and she was Phils sister...
