From Our Maknae | 3

1. conflicts everywhere

Warning : Mentions of Suicide

Kpop artist Goo Hara has been found dead at home'

'Kpop singer found dead at age 28'

'Kpop singer found dead in her Seoul home'

Seeing the news, I see all the girls a bit down too, but I, it hit me like a truck.

"Y/N?" Jihyo asked as she walked to me and I look up at her.

"I can't hold it in anymore.. I have to do something about this." I said.

"I have the money for this. Come with me." I said and then walked over to my laptop and then called the group chat of our marketing, business planning team and JYP.

Luckily, they all answered.

"Y/N if this is about Hara." JYP said and I nod.

"It is, that's why, I want to start a movement, a solution I didn't think of during Jonghyun's. I want to become an advocate for suicide prevention and the LGBTQ+ community." I said and they look at me.

"I'll go in solo gigs in small venues or even university festivals. The money from the tickets that people pay for my show will go to charities for suicide prevention and I'll even donate myself." I said.

"Y/N, we have too much on our hands, we love your idea but." JYP said and I make a tsk sound repeatedly shaking my head.

"Too much on your hands? I get it my year long schedule and you overworking us takes too much of your time but I'm taking out my Own time to do some charity work and promote." I said.

"Please Y/N, we are so sorry, but we just cannot help you right now, but this can help, we'll allow you to do it, but you have yourself on this one." He said.

"Well thank you for at least listening." I said and ending the call.

"Y/N I'm so sorry.." Jihyo said.

"If you want, I'll pitch the girls about it and they too can donate." She said.

"I'd love that unnie, but I wanna do this speaking out thing like Jin-ri unnie.." I said and she smiled.

"I'm so proud of you, you know that right?" She asks and kisses my cheek.

So I made a plan, everyday I was going to do half an hour of busking. Singing, dancing, rapping whatever it took, and I'd have two signs, one that mentions multiple hotlines not just including suicide prevention and the other would say, it's okay to love and in brackets under it would say ( I support lgbtq+ ).

I'd also say at some times to donate at charities that involve suicide prevention or the lgbtq+ community around the world even.

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Yongjin drops me off and I thank him as I had my guitar around me and I carried the two signs and he helps me set up my mic and speaker.

Then he walks away as already I draw a crowd.

"Annyeonghaseyo." I smiled and then started to play guitar as I put the case there to collect money so I can donate afterwards.

Reminder here, this is all one day so yeah.

After singing Prom Queen, Lemonade and Hello Tutorial I sang End Of The Day.

By the time the chorus came, tears welled up and then wipe them away and closed my eyes the whole song.

I got through it and I drank some water as they clapped.

"I apologize during that one chorus." I smiled softly.

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Half an hour passed and I gained quite the crowd.

"Now this will be the last song, Nayeon unnie requested it, it's called I Love You 3000." I said.

"Baby take my hand, I want you to be my girlfriend, cause I'm your Iron Man and I love you 3000." I smiled as I sang the lyrics.

"Baby take a chance cause I want this to be something, straight out of a Hollywood movie.." I close my eyes.

"You see me standing there, in my hulk outerwear, and all you could think, is where is the ring." I continued.

"Cause you know I wanna ask, scared the moment will pass, you can see it in my eyes, I'll take you by surprise." I opened my eyes again.

"And all your friends they tell you they see, I'm planning to get on, one knee."

"Since you want it to be out of the blue, I'll make sure you have no clue, when I ask."

"Baby take my hand, I want you to be my girlfriend, cause I'm your Iron Man and I love you 3000." I sang.

"Baby take a chance cause I want this to be something, straight out of a Hollywood movie." I then continued the song.

Ending it, they clap and I stood up.

"Thank you everybody for coming!" I said and they clap before I then saw Yongjin arrive and he helps me pack before I put the money inside an envelope and drove home.

It was only 2 months in which I stayed in Toronto, but as much as I enjoyed being back on stage, I was afraid that one day, this black hole will swallow me just like it did to Jonghyun.

I pray every single night before going to bed and I even read Jonghyun's letter before going to sleep. I was sacred that one day, I'd do the same as him but in a different way. But I will fight this even if it tires me out every day and night.

For these 9 girls I will love to stay by them, not because I love them romantically, it's because we are soulmates. So it's my turn to return the favour.

Author's POV

"Welcome to Book 3, of the Our Maknae series, I hope this starting chapter will be enough motivation to get you to read this book! I already have 3 new chapters in the drafts and 1 I am currently writing." I said.

"Plus! There'll be things you have to anticipate! Even I can't wait to go through the book myself!" Taehyun said as they all agree.

"But on a serious note, I have deleted my original starting plot to this story and I made this chapter as a tribute to Goo Hara who unfortunately passed away this November of 2019. Earth has lost another artist, but heaven has received another angel. I hope Jonghyun, Sulli and Hara will all rest peacefully for the years to go by without them physically here with us." I said.

"I made our protagonist now an activist for suicidal prevention and for the LGBTQ+ community because I know those are two of the most unspoken topics within Asia and maybe even the world. So please if you ever feel uncomfortable during a chapter, you have the freedom to skip it and go to the next one." I said.

"Wow author-nim you're really going all out for this last book." Jackson said.

"If I didn't include these plots to the last books, why not include it in this last one." I said.