sometimes my brain does that thing like in the movies.
you know, when the person thinks of their someone special and it cuts to flashbacks of all the moments they had together.
my brain does that when i think of you,
the day we met, our first date, the first time we made love (and every other time we did),
the first time you told me you loved me, and when you realized i said it back,
the way you look at me like no one before,
when we fall asleep and when we wake up together,
the way you make me laugh, and the way i'm so comfortable when i'm around you.
but it's mostly your eyes,
and your smile,
they make me feel safe.
you make me feel safe.
but it's so damn hard.
i wish i could fix you,
sometimes i think you're so broken that the missing pieces just turned to dust.
sorry, i know it's hard.
i know i'm being selfish,
i know it's not really your fault,
i know you're hurting, and you want it to stop.
oh, if only i could do it for you,
if only i could take all the pain from you,
if only you'd be happy,
we could still be.
i wish i could wait for you,
i want to wait for you,
but it's so damn hard,
and i don't want to break.
i know i could find someone else,
but it wouldn't be you.
fuck.
it's you,
there's just you.
