"Maaga tayo sa airport bukas. Three hours before departure dapat-"
"Hindi naman ako tatakas." I cut her off. "I just want to see them." I added. Hindi naman siya sumagot. Nagbara ang lalamunan ko at namuo ang mga luha na kanina ko pa pinipigil. I looked at her with my pleading eyes.
"Sasamahan kita." Sabi niya at napabuntong hininga. Nag-iwas siya ng tingin. Takot siyang baka hindi ako tumupad sa usapan.
I don't know where to contact them. Wala ako'ng cellphone. Tapos na ang sembreak at ilang linggo na simula nang magstart ang klase for second semester. Pupuntahan ko sila sa school. Sana makita ko sila. Hindi ko alam kung gusto ko pa makita si Drei. Naguguluhan na rin kasi ako sa sarili ko. I'm scared. When I'm with him, I'm not myself, I'm completely a different person and I have this bad tendencies of putting my real goals aside. I don't know how to manage my feelings.
"Gusto mo ba sila tawagan?" Napatingin ako kay Miko. Nakasandal ito sa pinto ng kwarto ko. May kinuha siya sa bulsa at inabot ito sa akin. "Pinaloadan ko na 'yan." I blink many times while staring at the phone, after validating and recognizing it was mine, I gave my cousin a weak smile. I don't know paano niya ito nakuha. "Size 9 ako ha," He joked.
"Alagaan mo mabuti ang mama mo." I uttered.
"Naku, ang hirap magalaga ng magulang. Hindi siya marunong makinig. Akala kasi mga bata pa rin tayo." He complained, heaving a deep sigh. Hindi ko alam kung sinasabi niya ang mga bagay na ito para pagaanin ang loob ko.
Daddy used to say, if I'm confused, I should step back and continue stepping back until I see the the whole situation and the flip side of the coin from afar. By doing that, you will get a better understanding of why it is happening. The better you understand things, the better decisions you make.
I checked the time by looking at our wall clock. It was almost half past nine. There are so many unread messages and I'm not sure if I should read it.
Una kong naisip tawagan si Michelle. She's a very close friend and it would be unfair and uncouth to just leave without telling her what's going on with my life.
"Aizelle? Oh my God!" She exclaimed. She didn't even say hello."Good thing you called! Ano na nangyari sa'yo!?"
"Medyo busy lang at may inasikaso." I faked a chuckle, biting my lower lip while the envy slowly rising. "What time ang vacant niyo bukas?"
"Hindi ka na ba papasok? Gosh Aizelle, what happened to you? Ano nangyari sa inyo ni Drei?" I was kinda expecting she would ask that. "Lunch time lang ang vacant namin. Full load ang sched natin for this semester."
I puckered my lips together. I feel hopeless. Maaga ang flight ko bukas at hindi na ako aabot sa lunch time para mameet sila. I swallowed nervously.
"Pwede ka ba tonight? Magkita tayo." I asked.
"Aizelle, it's late na kasi. Pagagalitan ako ni Mommy. Pwede naman kita puntahan tomorrow." She said.
"Hindi na tayo magaabot. Aalis na ako. Bukas na ang flight ko. " I finally said it. I find it hard to organize my sentence.
Tahimik si Michelle sa kabilang linya. I don't know what to say to her.
"I.. I don't know what to say, Aizelle. Aalis ka ng ganon na lang? Alam ba 'to ni Drei?" She broke the silence. She was too focused on the issue between me and Drei that she even forgot to ask why I am leaving.
"I..I'm really confused. Hindi ko alam kung tama ba na magkita kami. Huwag mo na sabihin."
"Really? Aizelle, do you even hear yourself? That's so selfish." Michelle's tone of voice changed. She sounded annoyed.
Chapter XV
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