Never Loved Enough...

Smile For Once

Monica POV
After the club thing I was perfectly fine. It was still early in the night so, Quan said I could stay with him an bring my cousin and friends so it was cool. Of course my brother was there. It turned into a kick back. At the time we was chilling so why not do karaoke. Guess who wanted to go first my brother & Quan. Then had the nerve to start singing August Alsina - You deserve. It wasn't the regular neither it was chipmunk. I really say they have to much time on they hands when they not at the trap.

*You can play the song, I'm going to put lyrics. You can skip over it don't matter.*

This is for the girl down the hall
Misused and abused
Yeah, yeah yeah
Pick ya head up love, smile
This is for you

Girl I know sometimes that I mistreat you, and you still come back
And I see your homegirls try to reach you, but you ain't hearing none of that
They try to get through, they say I ain't the move
I don't know, cause girl it might be true
When they tell you, you should walk away but you stay anyway

Girl I think it's best for me to say this, I ain't no good
And your heart ain't something I should play with
So let's get it understood
I ain't trying to ruin your life
If anything I just want to make it right
And tell the judge I ain't even gotta plead my case
I can tell my baby to her face

I was just your nigga next door
But girl I see more for you, I see more for you
And you ain't gotta have no fear, no I'll always be here for you, girl I'm here for you
And I know you may not end up with me, it ain't gotta be me
Cause I'm still playing outchea in these streets
But I'm just saying
You deserve better, I'm saying, you deserve better

I know that love can be blind
But just open your eyes, open your eyes
Take a look in the mirror
Baby girl you a prize
And any man that don't see that you should let his ass go, believe that
Because his love ain't real
What he won't do another nigga will

Girl I think it's best for me to say this, I ain't no good
And your heart ain't something I should play with
So let's get it understood
I ain't trying to ruin your life
If anything I just want to make it right
And tell the judge I ain't even gotta plead my case
I can tell my baby to her face

I was just your nigga next door
But girl I see more for you, I see more for you
And you ain't gotta have no fear, no I'll always be here for you, girl I'm here for you
And I know you may not end up with me, it ain't gotta be me
Cause I'm still playing outchea in these streets
But I'm just saying
You deserve better, I'm saying, you deserve better

You deserve all the love, you deserve all the love
You deserve all the care, you deserve all the care
You deserve all that and more, you deserve all that and more
You deserve better, you deserve better
You deserve to laugh, you deserve to laugh
Baby you deserve to smile, baby you deserve to smile
You deserve the best of everything
You deserve better

I was just your nigga next door
But girl I see more for you, I see more for you
And you ain't gotta have no fear, no I'll always be here for you, girl I'm here for you
And I know you may not end up with me, it ain't gotta be me
Cause I'm still playing outchea in these streets
But I'm just saying
You deserve better, I'm saying, you deserve better
Yeah, yeah yeah
You deserve better
Smile
You deserve better

By the end of the song I'm in tears cause Quan is on his knees singing to me like no one else in the room. My brother had to stop an stare cause it cause caught him off guard too.

"Monica you deserve the world. You deserve someone better than me. But this day forward I'm not giving up till you mine. I'm sorry for what I did. That was so wrong of me. I can and will do any and everything for you. Just don't give up on me." He just stared at me with so much seriousness. All I could do was hug him an kiss him.

Quan POV
I know I know. Don't judge me. It's just her. I need and just want her. She don't need to change nothing. I love every inch of her. I would show her but the way the situation is set up right now that's not possible. But I should have been with her a long time ago but. This time around I'm not letting go. Monica will be mind.

Adrain POV
Man I'm not even gone stop. He been wanting her. But the situation didn't permit them to be together. But now they are. Okay well no officially but yeah. I'm just going to focus on my lil friend cause that's who I want.

Ty'bria POV
My baby growing up. But now it's time for me block. "Okay, enough of the lovey dovey stuff. So, since we already here we might as well have a big sleep over." I said
"Omg! How about no. Y'all ain't messing up my living room. All y'all can catch a guest room. Every couple can get a room." Quan said making us bust out laughing. "Ummmmm Monica you better be in a guest room cause you an Quan in same room same bed I think not. You ain't that damn grown." Adrian hollered. We was laughing harder now cause he actually think Monica will sleep in a guest room.

Anna POV
"I'm hungry. Let's get food Yall. " Of course I would holler that. Everyone agreed. We hoped in Adrian's Tahoe an we was off to Jack in the crack. After getting our food went back to Quans house changed an demolished our food. You heard nothing but smacking an paper. " I'm going to bed you guys. Night! See yall in the morning." Monica said heading upstairs. "Monica you didn't finish your food. You need to eat." I hollered at her. I just met her but I'm the only one who knows about her being a diabetic. Just for the fact her sugar got low at the club an I had to help her. "I'm full already. I gave the rest to Quan." She hollered from upstairs. I shook my head an went upstairs. "Monica you didn't eat much. Please go eat some more just so your sugar doesn't drop during the night." I begged her. I know how it is cause my mom and grandmother has it so it's pretty scary. She shook her head an came back down an ate more. Mhmmm I knew she wasn't full she just trying to starve herself. I seen from the corner of my eye her an Quan whispering. Her turned his head to me an mouthed a thank you. I shook my head saying no problem.

Crystal POV
Well I'm just chilling. I love this. I can get used to this. New friends. That's all from me y'all.

Narrators POV
Everybody was enjoying the night. The watched a movie. Then ended up sleeping in the living room. But it's okay.
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Sorry for the wait. But I had a bad case of writers block. But I'm back now.

-How much longer can Monica hide her secret?
-Who is Adrian's friend?
-Do you think Quan is serious?

*Please don't comment about the lyrics. I know that it took up some space. But this is just how I write if you don't like you can skip it or don't read my book. I love all of my fans, supporters, even my ghost readers. But criticizing me about the lyrics will only make me shut the book off. I'm not being mean just saying how I feel. Anyhow hope you like it. An I will be adding more music & lyrics. Thanks.
-Peace✌️, love❤️,& Dajia