Main Man

One

(1989)

Chaz and Elijah were staying at Paulette's for the week,Rob and Cher had been at each others throats for the past few days.He said he wanted out and starting packing.There were boxes laying all over the place,some already sealed,some still half empty, waiting to be filled with the rest of his stuff.

They were now currently in the kitchen fighting yet again...

"Cher I've had it,I'm done,I can't fucking do this anymore,why are you mad,we haven't been okay for the past few months.I thought you would be happy,because I'll no longer be an inconvenience for you!" He shouted nearly breaking the glass he put in the basin.

"I'm not mad at you I'm mad at myself,for letting myself fall in love and for once letting myself believe that someone actually had my back.I should've known you didn't mean it when you said,you had my back,that you don't care about my job or the press and paparazzi that goes along with it,that you'd love me no matter what!

Tell me Robert,does it boost your ego to know you've fooled 'Cher'?are you getting some kind of sick thrill out of it?!"

He followed her to the pool area and continued...

"You know what fuck you!this isn't my fault okay,I meant every word of it!

Its just hard to keep a promise when the person you made it too is always too busy for him,never talking to him,rushing off constantly,never at home,never thinking about your feelings!
God the list goes on and on,if I had to name everything I'd be dead of old age!"

"Fuck me no,fuck you!this isn't easy on you,have you ever thought of how I felt.I don't think so because for that to ever happen you'd have to stop wearing your ass like a fucking hat!
Do you know how many nights on end I cried myself to sleep because of how awful I feel,knowing that I'm absent most of the time and that I'm neglecting everyone that I care about including us.And do you know how it feels to already feel like a worthless piece of shit just to have someone you thought would understand tell you that everything that went wrong is your fault,that your just some self obsessed bitch?!...

Fuck you for letting me believe I was worth loving,that I was worth being taken care of,that you would have my back when you planned on letting me fall on my ass and making me hate myself even more" She whimpered the last part through her tears,her knees pulled up to her chest,her head resting on them as she sat on the couch near the pool.

The words she spoke cut through Rob like a knife.She was right,through all this time he hadn't once,not even for a second thought about her feelings.All he did for the past few days was shout at her,letting her now she's the reason he is leaving.

About a minute of silence passed before he carefully went and sat beside her...

"You're right,I haven't thought about how you felt this entire time.All this time I've been telling you it's your fault and that you only think about yourself when thats exactly what I've been doing...

I'm really sorry for pinning this all on you without wanting to hear your side,I'm sorry for making you feel worthless.I got carried away and forgot the reason I was here in the first place,the reason I'm so angry that I'm leaving..."He spoke calmly with a hint of embarrassment in his voice.

" Rob,I'm sorry too, for not always having time for us and for calling you all those things I did when we fought."Cher responded softly,tears now streaming down both their faces,remembering their love for one another.

He wrapped an arm around her loosely and she gently rested her head on his chest.They sat like that in silence for what seemed like forever but was merely only an hour...

"Rob?" She sniffled,sitting up,drying her face with one of her sleeves.

"Yeah?"

"Do you think maybe..."