He picks Claudia up from school the Thursday after Cuchillos tats him up. She's grinning until he turns his head towards her fully, and he watches with something like unease as the smile drops off her face, mouth parted a little like she can't make sense of it. She seems to pause, the slightest bit, before opening the passenger side door, bag dropped to her feet once she's climbed in.
"Hey," she says, not half as excited as she seemed the last time he picked her up, and he returns the greeting with about as much enthusiasm.
He pulls out of the parking lot, drives towards his place instead of hers even as he asks her, "You heading home?" and she answers no.
He knows she had a test in history, today, but asking about it seems unimportant. She's fiddling with the radio, settles on some R&B song he's heard in passing. She bites at her nails, after, and he reaches out to take her hand without really thinking about it. She keeps saying she's trying to stop doing that. Her hands are a little dry, soft against his. Lately they seem to reach for one another without really thinking about it. He likes it a lot.
She inhales, careful, and laces her fingers with his. Says, "When'd you get it?"
"Tuesday," he says. It shouldn't take too long to heal, Cuchillos said. Keep it moisturized. Let it breathe. His cheekbone is smeared with Aquaphor as is.
"It hurt?"
"Not really," he says. "'S real little."
"Yeah," she says. When he glances at her she's staring at their joined hands. Rubs her thumb against the back of his, just a little. He feels choked up, suddenly. Like his lungs aren't working when he looks at her. Something about her expression, the way her eyebrows are pulled together, mouth set into a frown. He wants to reach out and smooth it all away, but he's the reason she looks like that today. He doesn't like the feeling.
He says, instead of anything else, "How'd your test go?"
She quirks a grin at him. Amused even when he's full of shit. "Fine. Wasn't too bad."
"Cool," he says, and her smile almost reaches her eyes.
When they walk into the house Oscar tries not to swear—catches sight of his mother's thin form before she can see them. Takes a step forward like he can block her from seeing Claudia. He'd be expecting too much, though.
"Your room?" Claudia asks, voice low, and he shrugs, says, Yeah, even as his ma turns to look at them. She looks clear-eyed for once, eyebrows up high when she notices it's not just Oscar in the doorway. Her recognizing him shouldn't feel this surprising, but last they had a real conversation it was only real on one end—she kept calling him Cisco. Just thinking about it makes him sick.
"Niño," his ma says, voice reedy, "qué tienes en la cara?"
Jesus. "Nothing," he says, even as he takes a step towards the bedrooms, away from where she lingers in the kitchen. They don't have lights in the living room, right now—bulbs are out. "Why ain't you at work?"
"I don't work every day," she says, words syrupy slow even without the drugs, "y esta niña?"
"You know her," he lies. They've definitely only interacted in passing, Claudia on her way out the house before Penelope could get a good look at her. He knows how this is going to go before she even opens her mouth, not that it stops her from doing it, anyway.
"You bringing hoodrats around here, huh," she says. Claudia, standing close behind him, curls her fingers at the hem of his shirt. He reaches back to hold her hand, squeezes when she clutches at him. "Where you from, eh? You too dark to be Mexican."
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don't wanna rush | oscar diaz
Teen FictionHere's the thing: Oscar's a sucker from the get-go.