I'm Not Cold; Just Scared

*^▽^* Chapter 16 *^▽^*

Somi groaned, facepalming herself. "Honey, have you seen the way he looks at you? All of us knew he had a thing for you and yet you didn't realize it? It was that obvious." she said, stuffing her face into a pillow dramatically.

Daehwi just cringed. "Oh my god stop being so overdramatic" he muttered.

Somi looked up at him. "Anyways, what are you gonna say to him?" she asked him.

"Oh I dunno... should I say yes?"

Somi gave him an incredulous look. "Is that even a question, Lee Daehwi? It's obvious the guy likes you, why are you hesitating?" She asked.

Daehwi shook his head, a kind of gloom setting on him. "N-no. It's not like that  Somi. You would understand, I'm just scared the same thing that happened to me and Donghyun hyung would happen again."

Somi went closer to her childhood best friend and flung an arm around his shoulder. "C'mon, Daehwi, nothing bad happened, it was all because of your father that you and Donghyun oppa had to break up. But you haven't seen your dad in years now, what makes you think the same thing would happen again?" She asked.

"I don't know, I guess I still haven't gotten over it yet. And I'm really scared to break Jinyoung hyung's heart as well but...maybe my thoughts are all jumbled up, I guess." he replied, sighing.

Somi suddenly stood up. "Daehwi, can I ask you one question? If we pretend the Donghyun thing and all that never happened, would you say yes to Jinyoung oppa? What I mean by that is do you actually like him back or are you just pretending?

Daehwi shrugged. "I guess I do like Jinyoung hyung; he has made me feel comfortable in a way no one else has made me feel, he cared for me when I was going through trauma and I'm still surprised I didn't realize all that before. But I'm scared to go into a relationship with another male. Look at Jihoonie hyung and Kuanlin, they have to keep dating in secret. If I date Jinyoung hyung and word gets out, he's ruined, I'm ruined. And we'll all be hurt. Do I really want that? I don't know if I do."

Somi sighed, sitting back down. "And do you think Jinyoung oppa hasn't already thought about all of this? Don't you think he ²has already thought about the risks of dating someone of the same gender? As far as I know, his mom might even disown him if she finds out, don't you think so?"

Daehwi nodded slowly. "You do have a point, but-"

Somi cut him off. "So that shows that he's willing to take that much of a risk just because he likes you that much."

Daehwi thought about it for a while. Somi actually did have a point. The Jinyoung he knew wasn't one who'd jump into random decisions without any thought. He wouldn't want to be judged by society. He wouldn't want to be disowned. Yet, why was he taking such a risk? Did he really like Daehwi that much?

Daehwi looked up at Somi. "What if we break up in the future? We probably might, and then we'll all be hurt, right?"

Little did Daehwi know, Jinyoung himself had the same problem just a few days ago.

Somi sighed. "Yes, but don't you think you'll be happy when you are dating him? Look, it's understandable that you are still traumatized because of what happened between you and your father. But Donghyun oppa didn't stand up for you back then, did he? And it's obvious Jinyoung oppa cares for you. A lot. Don't you think he'll be a good guy for you?" she asked him.

When he didn't answer, she sighed again. "Look, I understand that you're worrying about the future but the future hasn't come yet, has it? And omg I can't believe I'm being so cliché but you should be happy, Daehwi. You just admitted that you liked him right? If you reject him, don't you think you'll be regretting it later? Also, don't you think he confessed to you because he didn't want to regret not telling you?"