"B-but Daehwi....I'm not cold....I'm just scared"
Bae Jinyoung, the rumored to be "Cold Guy".
Lee Daehwi, the popular, friendly social butterfly.
Both hiding secrets bigger than their existence.
Both overwhelmed by the power of social judgments arou...
"What?" Jinyoung yelped. He was definitely shocked when he heard this. Daehwi swallowed and nodded.
"Yeah, he tried to persuade my mom to abort but she didn't want to, and she gave birth to me a few months later. The problem was, my father is a drunkard who lazed around all day and didn't work. And so my mother left me with my father while she worked at two day jobs."
"I rarely saw her, and I was too terrified to stay with my father. He was abusive, I guess, and he always talked about homophobic things and how all gays should be murdered brutally. If I wanted to ask him a question, he would slap me saying that I disturbed his sleep. He would come home late every night and slash soju bottles on the floor, making me clean them up."
"Oh, Daehwi..." Jinyoung trailed off, looking at the younger.
"And at school, I had no one to talk to. I may be popular now, but back then, I was Lee Daehwi the Outcast. And that's when I met him. Kim Donghyun, my first and last boyfriend."
Jinyoung was shocked and felt a pang in his chest once he realized that there used to be a guy who had dated Daehwi. But what had happened?
"He was three years older than me. Must be 20 now" Daehwi said, smiling nostalgically. "Thanks to him, I was able to take a break out of my horrible life. He filled the void I felt with the absence of my mother. For a while... I was happy."
"But then that one day... it was nearing Donghyun hyung's sixteenth birthday and well... we were kissing." Daehwi said "That's when my father burst into his room and dragged me out of his house."
Jinyoung's eyes had widened. "Wait your boyfriend didn't do anything to stand up for you?" It was what he would've done if he was in Donghyun's place. He would have stood up for Daehwi. That's when he saw a tear roll down Daehwi's cheek and he wiped it with his thumb.
"No he didn't...but then again my father's scary. That night, he told me that I was a disgusting gay and that he had wanted to strangle me whenever he had laid eyes on me. He slashed at me with those soju bottles until I bled."
Daehwi was trembling. Jinyoung put an arm around Daehwi's shoulders and held the younger close.
"That's when he slashed my back with a belt. That wound was so deep it's still scarred." Daehwi sighed.
Jinyoung stared at him. "He whipped you?"
"That's why I have this... large ugly scar on my back which I didn't ask for" He said. "But anyways, I ended up at Jisung hyung's place and what I don't get is...it's in the past. It's over now. Even though I haven't seen my father for four years I'm terrified that I'd meet him anywhere. I'm hesitant to go to LA because that's where my mother is. I don't even want to think about those days but I keep getting reminded of it..." He broke off unable to say more, sobbing.
"And Jihoon hyung's and Woojin hyung's orphanage stories are terrifying too, but they've gotten over it...they don't get traumatized, they're very open with the fact that they're orphans. But why do I get traumatized?" He wailed like before.
Jinyoung brought Daehwi's head onto his shoulder and caressed the younger's hair. "Baby...it's okay...calm down...." He whispered into Daehwi's ear. Daehwi buried his face in the crook of Jinyoung's neck.
He was taken over by a wave of emotions. Is this what Lee Daehwi is hiding every single time he smiles? That he's smiling on behalf of his younger self who hadn't had the luxury to smile? Daehwi was a literal baby and so precious, he couldn't imagine Daehwi being abused like that. That's just how much Daehwi hid in the face of others.
Daehwi eventually calmed down. "Do you want to go home now?" Jinyoung asked him, still stroking his hair. Daehwi nodded. They got up, Jinyoung's arm still around Daehwi's shoulders
When they reached the big house Daehwi remembered something. "Oh w-wait, no one's at home now s-so I have the key."
They opened the door and went inside. Jinyoung hesitated. He didn't want to leave Daehwi alone in the house while the smaller boy was still emotionally unstable. So he followed the younger inside. "Hyung do you want anything to drink or something?" Daehwi asked, rubbing his eyes and wet cheeks. Jinyoung shook his head. "I'm just worried about you, Daehwi." He said.
Daehwi shook his head. "I'm fine now. Really" He added as Jinyoung raised an eyebrow at him. "It's okay, I still don't want to leave you alone here." Jinyoung said while pulling Daehwi's wrist, making him fall onto the couch.
"And let me just say this, Hwi. It's okay to be traumatized by your past. But whenever you are reminded of it, if you ever need someone, I'm always there for you."
"Always"
They cuddled on the couch together for a while, Daehwi hugging the older with all his might while Jinyoung kept Daehwi close as if he was a rare jewel. Daehwi raised his eyes to look at Jinyoung. "I don't know what I would've done without you hyung... thanks for being their for me" he whispered.
"You approached me, first. Without you, I wouldn't have had these friends. I'd be a loner. You comforted me when I had panic attacks and whatnot. And for that, Thank you." Jinyoung replied.
They might not be dating, but they were closer than a couple at that moment. They felt grateful for having each other. It was a weird relationship, but then that's what they had.
After a while, Jinyoung realized that Daehwi had fallen asleep. His face was against Jinyoung's chest and he was giving content little snores, snuffling every now and then. His appearance was so cute, Jinyoung just felt himself smiling, looking at it. He caressed Daehwi's hair again and then whispered something.
"Lee Daehwi, I like you"
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This pic tho (Too much Jinhwi = my death)
Anyways, you know how sometimes you're so close with someone so it feels like you two are dating but you're not? That's kinda how Daehwi's and Jinyoung's relationship is at the moment
