I'm Not Cold; Just Scared

^ω^ Chapter twelve ^ω^

"Uh...Samuel, aren't you staring a little too much in that direction?" Daehwi called out to Samuel who was walking forwards but whose head had turned in the opposite direction.

Jinyoung turned his head in the direction where Samuel was looking at and saw Kim Jisoo with three other girls. He didn't know their names, he only knew that one of them was Thai and had a weird name. Something like lalala... but Samuel's eyes were fixed on Jisoo.  'Not surprised'   Jinyoung thought mentally.

"Uh was it that obvious?" Samuel hmphed 

Everyone nodded, making him groan. Somi was groaning too. "It looks like I'll have to room with some silly girl coz Mr. Jonghyun apparently thinks girls and guys can't sleep together...like I don't even get that! ALL OF YOU ARE GAY!"

"I'm not!" Samuel called from the back. Seonho raised an eyebrow at her. "Just a question, why don't you have friends who are girls? And why do you only hang out with boys?"

"I hate girls who squeal and act girly and have voices that sound like they swallowed gallons of Helium." Somi said, crossing her arms.

The gays- I mean guys decided to leave it there. "Who are you rooming with Hyungseob?" Woojin asked, in what he thought was an off-hand voice.

Hyungseob shrugged "I mean, I'd like to room with you"

Jihoon turned, grinning at his  twin whose eyes had widened. "O-oh yeah I was t-thinking about you t-too" Woojin stuttered.

And so this boring and meaningless conversation carried all the way to their houses. Jihoon, Kuanlin and Woojin went to the Takoyaki place they had visited previously and Jinyoung and  Daehwi were left alone, walking beside each other.

Usually at a time like this, Jinyoung would have felt awkward and uncomfortable. But now... it felt like their was something new in their friendship. And that was Trust. Both of them trusted each other and that trust had taken all the uncomfort and awkwardness out.

"Are you okay now?" Jinyoung asked. Until then, Jinyoung had seemed so young to Daehwi, especially because of the anxiety problems and everything and their age gap of one year seemed non existent. But right then, Jinyoung seemed to be so much older than him. And not going to lie, Daehwi liked that.

He nodded in response to Jinyoung's question before looking at him. "Um hyung... can we go to the park?" he asked.

Jinyoung shrugged. "Yeah sure, I have time today" he said.

And so they set off to the park. There were kids running here and there, on swings, laughing, living their best life. Jinyoung and Daehwi both sat on the park bench behind the playground,  in a secluded corner, looking at kids playing.

"I miss being little..."Jinyoung sighed.

"I don't" Daehwi replied "And that's why I wanted to talk to you."

Jinyoung looked at Daehwi with a confused expression, before it hit him. "Look, Daehwi I told you earlier, you don't have to tell me"

"I want to", Daehwi sighed "It's just...I'm still traumatized because of what happened and I have no idea why"

"So, my mother and father met in a club where basically my mom was taken advantage of and then she became pregnant with me. My mom's rich parents were  angry and they called my father and they basically got married then and there." Daehwi said.

Jinyoung bit his lip. It already didn't seem like it was gonna be a happy story.

Daehwi went on, "when I was still unborn, my father...wanted to abort me."