signed, s. eijun

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Eijun,

we haven't talked in a while and i hope you haven't started to hate me. that would suck.

i'm not even sure about what i'm doing anymore. i don't know why i argued with you over that. it shouldn't have been a big deal, but i made it one and i don't know what to do anymore.

i miss you. a lot. my heart hurts a bit when i pass by you in the halls. my stomach gets all twisted in a knot. but i don't ever reach out to you. i don't know if you hate me or not. if you want to fix this or not. and even though we've been friends for months, i don't know much about you. i wish i did. i wish i knew everything about you, down to the last detail. because you're just so special to me. i know i will never meet someone like you again in my life.

i don't want to lose you.

ah, all of my emotions just came out. but they're all true. don't ever doubt that they aren't. i love you with everything i have. please never forget it.

now if only i could say all of this to your face.

love always,
N. Nozomi

this hurt a bit to write. i have no idea why.