Lovely;Billie Eilish

Chapter 4

Well holy shit, that just happened. I'm opening for Billie fucking Eilish on her world tour. I have no words, I can't believe I'm doing it, out of everyone on this earth she asked me to do it.

I've got to start writing some new material I only have a few original songs and they aren't even that good. I sit in my bedroom which is my makeshift studio. I crawl onto my bed with my notebook and try to think of some lyrics.

I wonder how I got by this week
I only touched you once
Lately I can't find the beat
I used to feel the rush

Started with a little bit
Now I don't know how to quit
Always feel inadequate
Same way that my daddy did

Mama told me not to try
And I should have taken her advice
And now I'm all twisted
When it's all gone, I miss it

I'll try just to do somethin'
I'll try 'cause I got nothin'
Else that gets me through the day
'Til I find another way

I'll try just to do somethin'
I'll try 'cause I got nothin'
Even if I lose again
I won't quit

I wonder how I got by this week
I only touched you once, uh
Lately I can't find a beat
I used to feel the rush

And now I need you to feel the vibe
I need you to see the point
I need you to feel alive
I need you to fill the void

My insecurities are
My own worst enemy, yeah
Something's not lettin' me
Move the way I used to

Thought you could better me but
Then you stopped lettin' me walk
Now you're just settin' me off
So I'm tryna lose you

I'll fight just to do somethin'
I'll fight 'cause I got nothin'
Else that gets me through the day
'Til I find another way

I'll fight just to do somethin'
I'll fight 'cause I got nothin'
Even if I lose again
I can't quit, mmm

I wonder how I got by this week
I only touched you once
Lately I can't find a beat
I used to feel the rush

And now I need you to feel the vibe
I need you to see the point
I need you to feel alive
I need you to fill the void

I need you to fill the void

I need you to fill the void

You paralyze me every time
I try to find some paradise
I've got to fill the void
And now I'm paranoid

You paralyze me every time
I try to find some paradise
I've got to fill the void
And now I'm paranoid

I scribbled down the words going through my head making them rhyme and relevant to eachother. After a few hours I'd finished the lyrics. I decided to call the song Void.

I sat down onto my computer chair and rolled over to my equipment forming a beat to go with the song. Every now and then adding different sounds and tunes. Eventually I'd finished it and started recording me singing with the audio.

Overall it was a success, one of my favourite songs already and it's only been produced for about a maximum of 30 minutes tops.