a weighted memory ~ ashannie.

une ~ intro

everything's gone. him. his furniture. his car. everything. we said a brief goodbye but i couldn't bring myself to look into the green eyes of my best friend, knowing it's the last time i would see them. i watched them drive off and all i was thinking was...well-i don't really know what i was thinking. it was as if my mind was a blank space. no emotions. nothing. i can't wrap my head around it. he only told me the night before and that infuriated me. if i had known, i wouldn't be feeling like this. i would be prepared for his departure but no, everything feels rushed and i can't bare it.

now, 6 months later, i sit on my bed, emotionless. everything was so easy before he left. i felt care free. now i feel weighted and as if he is tattooed on my brain and i can't go a day without thinking about him, which just ruins my whole mood. the only time i truly express my feelings is through music. i started music club after asher left and discovered my love for singing. in order to get in you have to write a powerful and emotional song, written by your feelings. at first i thought i'd never make it in. i felt blank. but then when me and asher were texting, his long paragraphs slowly turned into dry, short, one word replies. that's when i knew what to write about, and that's also when i knew i lost him.

(hey! sorry it's short but this is just the intro. next chapter will be way longer :)