Songs I Write | III

Actin Up

I know I got friends, know that I can depend
Know they keep me up-straight when I'm falling
But then I feel so high I'm forced to come down
And I know it sounds crazy, for sure turns to maybe
Maybe you all hate me, for sure I'll never know
What really goes on in those heads of yours

You're telling the truth
You're telling the truth
Are you?
I'm acting sorta loose
'Cause closeness seems to lose
Why you acting up?
Acting down
Stop beating yourself up
Those bruises aren't from us

I know I made friends and they are all different
They've helped me through an end and a beginning
But am I sure they care? Why do they stick around here?
No, can't be I'm funny, I'm not really charming
I'm not sweet nor kind, do they lie? It's alarming
I think you all hate me because what is there to love from me?

You're telling the truth
You're telling the truth
Are you?
I'm behaving sorta petty
Ignoring so you'll hate me but don't have to talk
Why you acting up?
Acting down
Stop beating yourself up
Those bruises aren't from us

I got marks and scars and scratches
Broken fragments of past and hatchets
I don't want to unleash all that drama
So why, why do I bring it up every time?
Why must I always cry when it's going good
And would've been perfect if I wouldn't let it die
Watching all the conversation dry
Pacing in my room until you say goodbye
Knowing full well that you'll never know reasons why

You're telling the truth
You're telling the truth
Are you?
I'm acting sorta loose
'Cause closeness seems to lose
Why you acting up?
You're telling the truth
You're telling the truth
Are you?
I'm behaving sorta petty
Ignoring so you'll hate me but don't have to talk
Why you acting up?
Acting down
Stop beating yourself up
Those bruises aren't from us

Why you acting up?
Why you acting down now?
Stop beating yourself up
You know it's no one's fault that's around
Why you acting up?
Acting down
Stop beating yourself up
Why you acting up?