Songs I Write | III

Carvings

I wanna push it into my skin
Paint my cell colours of the wind
Icy pale until it sinks in
Pierce these walls and then it just stings

A slight pinch I feel in my heart
As my world is falling apart
And my feet can't hold me up
Pierce these walls just enough

For now
Just enough
For now

I'm so tired of saying, won't you quit?
Blood is but a colour tracing my lips
And if it ran down, my arms it'll kiss
It wouldn't hurt more than this

So why are you telling me that it gets better?
Watching your words as if you'll upset her
I know what I'm doing, I see no bliss
It wouldn't hurt more than this
It wouldn't hurt more than this

Carve a name I don't recognise
All of these letters that once brought paradise
People that brought light into my eyes
And now I'm blind

I can only tell certain memories
Longing and needing and breathing
Seems so simple and deceiving, so misleading

For now
Just enough
For now

I'm so tired of saying, won't you quit?
Blood is but a colour tracing my lips
And if it ran down, my arms it'll kiss
It wouldn't hurt more than this

So why are you telling me that it gets better?
Watching your words as if you'll upset her
I know what I'm doing, I see no bliss
It wouldn't hurt more than this
It wouldn't hurt more than this

I could lie to you and go ahead
I don't need to wait this long
I could try it out and be brave instead
But I'm a coward and waiting

For now
Just enough
For now

I'm so tired of saying, won't you quit?
Blood is but a colour tracing my lips
And if it ran down, my arms it'll kiss
It wouldn't hurt more than this

So why are you telling me that it gets better?
Watching your words as if you'll upset her
I know what I'm doing, I see no bliss
It wouldn't hurt more than this
It wouldn't hurt more than this

For now
Just enough
For now