Songs I Write | III

Dreamland

I keep swearing that I'll leave
I know I have nowhere to go
I'm just hoping it's enough to make you see
Make you need me

I keep promising I know
What I'm worth and how far I'll go
I try to threaten you with things like I'll just sleep
To make you need me

I just want you to wake up from your dreamland
Because it's not so fun in the world of the breathing and
I want to take your hand but punch you in the face
Because you keep making me feel sad with hurt I can't erase
I want to hold you so you'll remember what you felt when you wanted me
When you showed me, when you loved me

I tell my friends I won't go back
But they know me better than that
And now you know that I'm just so easy
I'm pathetic, mmm

I try to move on, push you out
Make you realise I got doubts
But you leave me on my own and go on out
And for some reason I stay up waiting around

I just want you to wake up from your dreamland
Because it's not so fun in the world of the breathing and
I want to take your hand but punch you in the face
Because you keep making me feel sad with hurt I can't erase
I want to hold you so you'll remember what you felt when you wanted me
When you showed me, when you loved me

I don't need it repeated
I know I never mean it
You know I never mean it
I don't need no more pep talks
On how I need to stop
On how I need to cut you off
And rightfully so
But I for sure know I could not
I could not, never do
I remain easy
And breezy
And so feeling
But you don't stay
You'd rather stay away
From me when I need you

I just want you to wake up from your dreamland
Because it's not so fun in the world of the breathing and
I want to take your hand but punch you in the face
Because you keep making me feel sad with hurt I can't erase
I want to hold you so you'll remember what you felt when you wanted me
When you showed me, when you loved me

I remain easy
And breezy
And so feeling
But you don't stay
You'd rather stay away
From me when I need you

You remain cold
In the unknown
Alone, self-healing
But you're selfish anyway
You'd rather stay away
From me when I'm needing you