True Euphoria

Chapter 1

The first time I met Jules was the night at McKay's party. She'd just made a scene in the kitchen and cut herself with a kitchen knife to avoid getting punched in the face by Nate.

She rushed past me through the hallway. A group of jocks were flailing around to the booming music when I turned to follow her.

Fuck I'm so high right now.

I made it to the front door which was wide open. I could see Jule's thin silhouette picking up her bike as I caught up to her.

'Hey! you're Jules right?' I said, trying not to sound out of breath.

My heart was pounding so loud that it drowned the sound of the booze infested party that was spilling out into the front lawn.

'Hey...ya..I just moved in..' said Jules brushing her pink mini skirt.

'whe..re're u going?'

'home..' said Jules looking down at her bike 'it's been a real shitty night..and I doubt anyone's gonna shut up about the chick who went Norma Bates on the prom king'

Jules later told me how she'd had a rough night fucking Nate's dad. It wasn't the gentle, loving, kind of fucking either. It was the kind where it fucking hurt to get on a bike and ride 5 blocks to McKays'.

'Ya that was...kinda hard to miss...also kinda cool' I said.

'Thanks' said Jules. She liked that.

The fall wind wheezed in the night, blowing her blond mess of a hair out of her face. Her big blue eyes looked back at me apologetically.

Shit, say something else Rue, don't let her leave.

' I'm Rue..' I said, cocking my head like a gangsta and extending my hand out '...I just got out of rehab'

'...and you came here..... to celebra-' said Jules, surprised.

'C...an I come?' I said, cutting her off 'home...with u I mean?....u know...to make sure Nate doesn't come after u'

'not sure if you can protect me... with those skinny arms' said Jules, with a half smile.

'are u kidding?...' I said, flexing my none existent biceps 'they're small...but mighty'

She smiled again.

'ok Rue...you may see me home' Jules said with a curtsy.

She was right though. I was way too skinny to protect anyone. In fact, if Nate did come after her, I'd probably just throw myself between them just to buy her enough time to get away.

The cool late night mist was settling in the distance while we rode in silence. There wasn't a car in sight. Just the sound of crickets chirping underneath the soft electric hum of street lamps. I tightened my arms around her thin torso and pressed my face deeper into her back. She smelled like lavender. Sweet, floral, and warm. I moved my hands lower. She didn't seem to mind. A little lower..

'hey...' she said

'sorry!'

'no, I'm sorry' said Jules 'I'm bleeding all over you'

'don't worry about me, is ur arm okay?' I said

'yeah, but careful with your hand, or i'll bleed all over you' she said

I reached for her forearm with my free hand and put pressure on her dripping cut.

'there..' I said '..now u won't have a choice but to bleed on me'.

I planted my face deeper into her back. She giggled.

The mist had settled when we reached her front porch. She led me to her front door and slowly opened it. The lights were off and we carefully snuck in and went upstairs to her room.

Her room was on the far end of the hallway, right past her dad's room.

She slowly opened the creaking door, took my hand, and pulled me into her dark room. We were just friends, but this felt like we were sneaking into a school bathroom stall to make out.

Her room smelled just like her. Sweet lavender and vanilla. I stood there taking in Jules' scent as she took her boots off and then started stripping. I felt awkward and bumped into her closet mirror as she took her top off. She giggled so I averted my gaze and turned around pretending to inspect her hanging necklaces. Topless, she started going through a pile of clothes next to her bed. I couldn't help but steal another glance while she grabbed her crop top and put it on.

Jules' was slender and tall. Her perfectly round breasts were a work of art. Literally. She had later told me that it took her a year to convince her dad to put up the money. She had told him that they were part of her transition journey.

'come here' she said laying on the bed arms spread out.

shit. be cool Rue. I could feel my heart beating louder with every step I took towards her. I took my jacket off and awkwardly sat next to her.

shit shit shit

I couldn't help but steal another glance, this time at her panties. I could see the outline of her penis.

'you're curious..' she said with a half smile 'I get it'

'nnmmnm....' I shrugged and was now mumbling.

'it's real' she said sitting up. Jules took my hand and put it on her crotch.

I couldn't move. I was stunned. what just happened?

'see?' said Jules, giggling and then getting up and leaving the room.

I was still processing what had just happened. My brain was firing 10 things at once. Does she want to fuck? Where'd she go? What do I do?

I had only slept with one other person, ever, and I was so high that I didn't even come.

Within moments she was back with a band aid and a wet towel. She sat back on the bed and started wiping her wound.

"ow!' she gasped

'here, i'll do it' I said, taking the towel and cleaning the wound. Her face was really close to mine and I could smell her breath now.

'take a deep breath' I said as I wiped the surface of the cut. I next took the band aid and rolled it around her arm.

When it was done, we lay down on the bed. I could see the sky from the window on top of her bed. The sun was beginning to rise and a lonely bird had just woken up. We could hear it tweeting.

For a moment, she looked at me and I looked right back at her. Her big blue eyes, staring back with curiosity. Our faces so close that we could feel each others' warm breaths. I reached out and took a streak of hair covering her face and slid it behind her ear.

Jules was so fucking beautiful. Her perfect face, pale as the moon. Her long blond her spread out on the pillow. It was all I could do, not to get on top of her and kiss her. I scooted closer. I so wanted to put my nose on her bare stomach and smell her. I wanted to feel her warmth and kiss her bellybutton.

Could she tell that's what I was thinking?

'what? said Jules smiling.

I placed my fingers on her lips, feeling their softness. Then I moved my face closer to hers and gently kissed her.