baby; ruel van dijk

59 - irl

ava<3
you already did. you were drunk and it
was an accident, i know

ruel<3
what can i do?

ava<3
there's nothing you can do. it's too late

ruel<3
don't say that. i'm not giving up avalyn

ava<3
you're wasting your time

ruel<3
i'm not. i refuse to let you go

I drop my phone into my bed and put my head in my hands. What do I do? I know Ruel and I know how persistent he is.

My phone chimes so I quickly pick it up.

ruel<3
ava?

ava<3
i don't know what to say

ruel<3
say you'll give me a chance to fix things.

ava<3
you know i can't do that

ruel<3
yes you fucking can

ruel<3
i love you, and what i did was a mistake
that i'll never make again

ava<3
how can i trust you?

ruel<3
let me show you that you can still trust me

ruel<3
just give me one more chance,
that's all i'm asking for

ava<3
i can't do this right now, i'm sorry

ruel<3
no ava wait, please talk to me

ruel<3
can i call you??

I bite my lip and stare down at the screen.

Should I let him?

Before I can think any further, the screen changes to a picture of us, meaning he's trying to call me. I let it ring through and sigh in relief when it stops. I almost jump when it starts up again.

Answer it Ava, talk to him.

I click the green circle without thinking and close my eyes. I slowly bring the phone up to my ear.

"Ava?"

I hate that the sound of his voice still calms me.

"Baby are you there?"

"Yeah." I whisper softly.

I hear him sigh in relief. "I miss you. So much."

I go back to biting my lip nervously. "I miss you too."

He's silent for a few seconds. "...Really?"

I immediately regret telling him how I feel. He doesn't need to know that I still miss him, even after what he did.

"I-I need to go-"

"Please don't. I shouldn't have said that, I just wanted to talk to you. I miss hearing your voice."

"There's nothing to talk about Ruel, we went over this already."

I hear the sound of another voice in the background. "Is that her?" Ruel stays silent so i'm guessing he nodded.

"I just need one more chance Ava, that's it. I-If I mess up you don't ever have to speak to me again." He begs, sounding desperate.

I did not get enough sleep last night to deal with this.

"I need to think about it." I whisper.

"Yeah, of course. Take your time." He sounds relieved. "Can we meet up? Before I have to go back."

"Maybe." Is all I can say. "I should go."

"Do you have to?" Ruel asks.

A small smile appears on my face and I shake my head. "Yes Ruel, I have to."

"Alright..." He trails off. "Hey Ava?"

My silence lets him know to continue.

"I love you."

My cheeks heat up and I mentally curse myself for letting him affect me like that.

And though he doesn't deserve it, not one single bit, I can't help but mumble back four words.

"I love you too."