Pt.3 :My boy / Ohgeesy

Part 56

The next day

5:35pm

I walked in awkwardly and looked down not wanting to let people see the bags I had. After talking with Bee and letting her know I was infertile and how down I been feeling she decided to bring me to a church her and Fenix go to.

I pulled my sleeve a bit down and sat awkardly keeping to myself while Fenix and Bee smiled softly at me.

During the end of the service while they were getting dismissed I felt terrible because I payed no attention at all. Soon my attention was up at the alter/stage, "Fenix,  Bee would you like to introduce your friend" the preacher asked

"Hi I'm Genesis" I stood up and waved around and as soon as it was dismissed people came over to me to welcome me

It all felt so welcoming it warmed my heart but as soon as Fenix and Bee left me to go talk to someone real quick I felt a void once again. It just felt like I had pressure on my heart and I knew it was just because of how Geesy left without calling me back or texting at least.

"Hello just wondering if your doing good" a guy asked coming over to where I was standing alone

"I'm Jason" he smiled sweetly and I shook his hand

"So are you fine" he asked seeming a tad bit concerned

"I'm.... I" I then take a deep breath and feel my eyes water up

"God loves you whatever is going on in your life will soon be over and better things will uplift but in the end of the day it's up to you" he says rubbing my shoulder as he was about to walk away I broke down and he turned to look at me quickly and soon I was embraced in a tight hug

After a bit of crying I told Bee and Fenix I'd stay behind because I was having such a good conversation and felt better near Jason positive advice

"I just never understood why God does this yknow like isn't he suppose to make your life better, I can't help but not have faith because all my life I've sent prayers and look at me, I'm a mess" I admit

"I totally understand you but God never promised you a perfect life, he never wants to put you in harm trust me. He won't ever give you a trial you can't handle yourself. But you can't expect to pray to him once and expect him to change your life yknow? It's like to say I came to you only when I felt down you get me" and I nodded wiping my tears

"Whatever he's doing is for a reason"

I stay quiet for a while and when I look back up I see him looking at me still. I then snort feeling awkward,  shy whatever you wnat to call it. It felt strange to rant to a complete stranger but it also felt so good to let all that out.

"I been through hell and back all my life but all those things made me tough and able to help people like you who need advice" he continues and I smile at him

"Well your doing good, in case no one has told you"

"Your smile brights the room, don't stay upset" he says bringing me in for a hug again

"I really hope I see you around more here"

"I just might come more" I respond standing up getting ready to leave

"If anything here's my number" he then reaches in his pocket but drops the paper causing me to giggle, he was such a dork

"Hennessy" my smile than dropped and I felt as if I was going insane

"I'll call you if anything" I smile receiving the paper and he kept looking past me so I turned

I guess I wasn't tripping he was here.

"Bye" I tell Jason and he waves as I brush past Alejamdro but he of course grabs my arm spinning me back to look at him

"Henny I'm sorry" he says grabbing a hold of my face continuously kissing it

"Stop" I mumble pushing him away feeling my eyes water up

"Mama can we talk on some g shit" he ask and I just continue walking and he walks beside me quietly

"So did the sperm donor thing work" I ask wiping my tears

"Hen let me start by saying sorry I left I just I honetsly do not know what I was thinking" he sighed

"I don't know what you were thinking either"

"yes the processing did work and I known I did do it without your permission. I just really wanted a kid and I wnated it no matter what, I wanted to fill the void of Atiya. In that car ride by myself I realized no one can replace her and I feel terrible. I only really realized how selfish I was being and that's why I told Allure to get an abortion" I quickly stop walking and he turns to look at me

"YOU DID WHAT" I yelled

"Look it's for the best, letting the baby in the world is going to have him confused about how he/she came about. Would you even want it" he asked

"I wouldn't want it to die for sure and I'm mad you even did all those things, like really mad. A thing a learned in that service is that whatever gets thrown at me i should work with it" I sigh , God must've done this for a reason

"So we keep it" he ask and I nod

"I'm sorry I didn't defend you I just thought you knew I never have because I never worry about you getting hurt, your so strong" he explains and I  can't help but to smile at this confession

"I don't get why Allure is always in our arguments though" I say

"She's a friend mama's you know this and it's hard for me to separate from her because we was brought up together but fuck it you hate her I do too, I'll drop her as soon as our baby here okay" he ask

"Don't do that papas" I shake my head

"I hate that we always consider my feeling and not yours, you do what you desire just always keep me up in date" I say walking close up to him and brushing his hair out his face

"I love you but I'm still mad" i smile softly and he pulls me closer laying his forehead on mine smiling as well

"I love you more" he then pecks me

"I should really understand you more and try to see things from your point of view bebe and I'm sorry I never do, I promised to be here for you through thick and thin and I will"