What if

Chapter Two

This is a story of two young people, Ella and Sam. They were in love with each other and everyone knew it. Everyone except them. 

It all started in elementary school because Ella and Sam were classmates. Ella always had a huge crush on Sam even though he wasn't that attractive untill a few years later. But she found him attractive because he was always kind and sweet to her. Until one day in seventh grade. Somehow Sam found out Ella had a crush on him so he started teasing her. At first she didn't make a big deal out of it but after some time it started getting to her. She became quieter and even less sociable. Most of the kids in her class didn't even notice and went on with their lives as usual. After some time they started teasing her and making fun of her again. All of that lead to an anxiety disorder later in her life but more on that later. His sudden personality change made Ella realize that he probably was a jerk all along and somehow she managed to take her eyes off of him. 

As the eight grade rolled around Ella was so antisocial that even her teacher started noticing changes in her behaviour. But her classmates didn't give a single f*ck about her. But as the year was coming to an end she started hanging out with the boys over the lunch break. Everyone noticed that. They made fun of her for that. Every single person that she thought was her friend suddenly thought she was a slut because she was only hanging out with the boys. The truth was and still is that boys have less drama than girls. Ella never liked to gossip and she tried her hardest to stay out of drama. Somehow she was in the middle of the drama almost every time. 

Ella and her classmates come into nineth and their final year together and they grow closer as a group. But Ella still doesn't trust the girls enough to spend time with them. She still hangs out with the boys. This year is a life changing year for all of them but Ella especially. She found out that she is suffering from the anxiety disorder, but this is also the year when she finds out about the rumours that were going around. A girl, who she didn't know all that well told her that Sam was into her this whole time and it was clearly visible that even Ella was into him. She then proceeded to ask a series of questions about why Ella and Sam aren't together because clearly they are meant for each other. Ella denied all the rumours but the thought was now stuck in her head. She couldn't sleep at night because all she could think about was: "What if the things she told me were real?" "What if Sam really does like me and he wanted to show me with his actions?" But it's too late to find out now isn't it? Everyone from the class went their separate ways. Some are still in touch but our Ella has found some people who made her completly forget about her past.

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Sooo this is yet another part of this book. I hope you like it. It's a story that really happened to me but I changed the names a little bit just to keep it somewhat anonymous. 

As you can see I'll be talking about some more serious things in this book such as the anxiety disorder so I hope that maybe you'll learn something new about it and maybe it can help you help someone or yourself even. 

Hopefully you have an amazing day. Lots of love. xx