Poetry of my life part 2

Should I cry for them?

For once I had lost

My friends and my family's trust

I never want to be the boss

Yet it was such a bust

That what I once had is gone

I need to realize that it is over

But I cry at night as the days go by

At night I listen and sing sad songs

Even as I walk many thoughts come even as I drove

Maybe that is what life it is as dry

I need to stop wishing for things to come true

Because they will never happen in the end

But they won't let me

Because I was pathetic and worthless maybe even not worth it

Is it right for me to cry

To the ones that I so called friends that I once had

If so then that will make me a pathetic person

If not then that makes me a cold hearted person 

That doesn't deserve anything but pain

But in the end I cry for them

To try and get them back