Swallowing My Soul

Swallowing My Soul-Part 1

-Chapter 1-

Dear Diary,

Hey, My name is Amy. My Dad is Aaron Sanders. Yeah, that famous football player. Anyways, I guess you'd think I am 'living the life'. I'm rich, beautiful, popular. I guess so. An outsider would think I was the typical American popular girl. Yeah, the popular girl that acts cruel to everyone lower around her.

Yeah, that's me. But I feel alone. STILL. I don't know why..

Anyways, enough with the boring diary. I gotta get ready for school.

Bye- SEPT.8.2009

"Amy!!"   Oh god, please tell me Carrie is NOT outside my bedroom door. But of course my pleads to god never make it there fast enough and in walked Carrie with  her expensive Jimmy Choo heels. "What are you doing? Its the first day of school and your writing in a dumb diary?"      "Go wait outside Carrie. I'll be down in a half hour" I calmly replied. Of course she does as I say and walks down to my living room.

This is why I never let anybody come in my house but my dad just happens to let Carrie in because he wants a chance with her mom.  What the hell right?

I walk to my huge closet picking out my outfit for the first day of Junior year of High School. I end up with light pink leather jacket over a white tank top and denim short shorts and pink heels to go along with the outfit. I went downstairs, knowing what Carrie's reaction would be. I saw her watching morning MTV music videos on my flat screen TV. She looked over at me.

"Amyyyyyyyy! You look so hot! Jason is soo gonna want to do youuuu!" She screeched.

"Oh please Cares, I'm not going to slut around like you to the whole football team."

"Whatever, I'm just trying to be nice. Its a compliment"

"Well thanks. But I'm not a slut"

She stayed quiet after that. See, I'm never on good terms with anyone in the group.

We walked in my cute light blue convertible and I drove off.  As usual, and so cliche, everyone crowded around me when I walked out of the car.

"Amy whats your schedule?" "Amy what classes do we have together?" "Amy where did you get your shirt?"

As usual I just smiled boringly and walked off. And as usual Carrie and Ashley followed me in. Wheres Victoria? you were most likely thinking. Well after 8th grade people worshiped me more than her and I squashed her(Not literally) and now she sits by the trash with the contagious sick freaks. Sometimes I feel bad for her. Yeah, I still have a heart. But she ruined my friendship with my 2 true Ex-friends. So that makes me lose my sympathy for her and makes me remind myself of who people want me to be now and I want people to like me so I act more bitchier than she ever did.

School went by more boring than ever with all the greetings and stuff. Seriously, I don't know why people like me so much. I thought egotistically. Its that your beautiful and people worship you like the Greek men did to Aphrodite. Hmph. I smiled to myself.

At lunch we sat in the middle of the cafeteria with the usual gang. Chase, Jason, Mark, Adriana, Lisa, Carrie and then me. Chase and Jason are the usual bobble head perverts and they think they have a chance with me. Mark is not like that. Mark is a sweetheart and he is sort of a true friend to me. Adriana doesn't even like me, Its so easy to tell. Lisa and Carrie just act like they're my friends but I'm not an idiot. They just act like that to be on my good side. After all, they did see what I did to Victoria.

I was really bored of this scene. I walked out telling Mark I'd be back for the next period.  I walked out of the stupid, excessively huge school and into my baby blue convertible. I felt so free and liberated as the wind made my hair fly. I noticed a cafe and went inside to get a sandwich. Yeah, I eat like a real human. I won't starve myself just to look like Paris Hilton. Anyways, I noticed an old couple pass by and I smiled at how cute they looked together. And in the corner I noticed a group of guys. I ignored them and went to the cashier. "Hey, can i get a turkey sub and Hot Chocolate?"    "Yes, Ma'am." I smiled and patiently waited.  The waiter handed me a tray and I walked to a small table. As I sat and set my bag on the back of my chair, I noticed someone in the group of guys I ignored before. He stared back. And So did I. I couldn't remove my eyes off him. But another guy snapped him away and I looked back at my sub.