Life....
Its a journey. I dont know if its long or short. At first I was scared of being tough. But now I am afraid of getting rid from the way called 'life'.
Today is the first day that I take medicine for my newly found health problem called "prolactinoma." It is a kind of tumor that is growing slowly in my head. Luckily it is not a brain tumor. Its location is just below two brains, and so, some parts of brains may get hurt if it grows larger.
After 2 stressful MRI and blood tests during last two months, doctor confirmed me that I have a tumor in my head. I was shock. I was shaked. And I thought I have no tomorrow. But I dont want to get surgery. As you know, getting head surgery is kind of horrible and I can't even dare to think about it. My doctor recommend me to take medicine since it's just started growing,thus, medication can control it. So, I choose to take medicines to shrink my tumor size.
I was very healthy for the whole life except from this tumor. No wonder I am not familiar with clinic, hospital or doctors. Plus, it is very stressful to go to hospital. Although I was very nervous, I noticed that the doctor incharged of me is quite handsome. He told me not to worry about it : as medication can make tumor to be vanished. I felt a little bit relief after hearing such an encouraging words from him.
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This super-small dose has super-power to shrink tumor, and amazingly, has huge side effects. Some people said that their first dose gave them a depression for the whole week, then, in their second time they can tolerate and depression become weak. Some said that they had headache or diziness. But some people said that they didnt suffer any side-effects. Some said that they even wake up like in heaven, but it disappear when it reached to 3 months. These are reviews from internet research. And I am really really really frightened. but when I think about that: without family and friends besides already give me sadness, high intelligent and smart labmates already give me depression. What should I fear anymore? haha.. To be honest , I hope I'll have a normal tomorrow. And I wish. It would be great if I have tomorrow which is free from headache and depression.
