Mayan Of Anarchy

If It Isn't Real Then It Won't Feel Right.... It Has To Feel Right!

Juice looks at Muerte with a terrified sad expression on his face "I know what I've done!.... and I'm sorry!!"  he tells her in a low heartbreaking tone "sorry doesn't mean shit!.... not in this place anyway!!"  she replies darkly "I need to explain....!"  he starts "explain what!?!"  she asked with the same dark tone  "I watched you!.... every move you made.... the way you acted how your smile changed when you saw me.... the tone you used when we spoke.... it was so different darker.... almost monotoned.... I hated it!!.... the stories Gemma was telling me about you told me two different things.... it was.... confusing!!.... I believed them because.... shit!.... I have no idea why!!.... my mind and my heart became jumbled I didn't know what to do!.... or think!.... I have always loved you!.... from the very start!.... and I haven't stopped!"  she lets out a short dark chuckle and replies "you sure have an odd way of showing it!"  he says with a sigh "I know!.... and I know that I don't deserve all the chances you have gave me!.... but I'm glad I had them!.... I wish I could take it all back!.... show you the proper way how much you mean to me!"  he pauses then asks softly "can't you just pretend to give them what they want!?!....  just like you've always done!.... I want this!.... I want to marry you!.... I want the chance to show you how I truly feel and I promise not to let her influence me any more when it comes to you!.... I stopped letting that happen after you got raped.... didn't.... couldn't you see that!?!"  she replies "of course I did!!.... you know how observant I am!.... I see EVERYTHING!!.... it's one of the main reasons Jax trusts me so much why you Reapers confide in the Mayans daughter when you have a problem you need to deal with outside club perimeters!"  it was true for some reason many of the men look to Muerte to be their strength when they feel weak their calming support system when they are too pissed off to stay calm themselves even if she doesn't do or say anything they're just glad she's there once they see that even she can't stay calm they know that everything has gone to shit and things between her and Juice have definitely gone to shit "if it doesn't feel real then it won't be right.... it has to be right!.... it has to work and nothing between us has ever worked!!.... how long will you continue to not listen to that Jiminy Cricket like bitch and start actually thinking for yourself for a change!?!"  she asks he looks at her in shock but says nothing "that's what I thought!"  she says "no!.... it isn't like that!!"  he says quickly "uh-huh!.... goodbye JUICE!!"  she replies then she walks away from him and out of the club he watches her the further away she becomes the more his heart breaks until it shatters.... during church Muerte walks in as Jax asks about Eli bringing in some beers for the guys in a cooler full of ice "sorry!.... I just figured that with how long this confession is you guys would be feeling a bit parched.... if you don't mind that is Clay!?!"  she says as she opens the door Clay waves her in with a side smile she walks over and starts at his end "the black and proud sheriff Roosevelt who the hell is he?"  Jax asks "we don't know much.... thank you gorgeous!.... he's out of a gangland task force from Oakland"  Chibs says as Muerte sets a beer down under a coaster for him "aww she even put down li'l coasters for us!.... is she just the sweetest!"  Tig teases hugging her hip bringing her close to his side she smiles and shakes her head ruffling his hair "hey!!.... don't mess with the do!"  he says pointing both hands at his curly hair "you mean do mess with the don't!"  she says playfully pulling on his anchor goatee he laughs as he let's her go and she sets down his beer and coaster "he's been working ten months he's let us know he's here but this is the first time he's whipped his dick out"  Opie says as Muerte sets down Opie's beer and coaster she replies "I'm surprised you all could see it it was so small!"  the guys laugh "yeah he's been pretty low-key"  Kozik says "yeah not anymore"  Tig replies "yeah yesterday was all about letting us know it ain't going to be business as usual"  Jax says as Muerte makes it over to Happy smiling down at him he smiles back she places the coaster and bottle of beer on his head he chuckles "wait!.... you mean this isn't were it's supposed to go!?!"  she teases as Happy takes them off his head and the guys chuckle as Clay says "yeah we're gonna have to dig pretty deep into this guy"  Piney replies "you're not gonna get this sheriff on your payroll this boys a straight up cop"  Clay looks over at Muerte and says "you seemed pretty cozy with the sheriff...."  she interrupts as she places a beer in front of Bobby with a coaster "I've helped a few times at his wife's flower shop.... I've only met him a few times when he'd pop in and say hello.... so no!.... I can't help either!.... besides he saw me with Happy.... you really think he's gonna listen to me now!?!.... he ain't stupid Clay!.... and neither am I!"  Chibs says "alright the meet is set with Putlova the Jellybean Lounge"  Jax asks "what is it with Russian's and strippers?"  Opie says making a face "they ain't strippers you been to the Jellybean? it's horse meat in a g-string"  Tig replies "I-I love the Jellybean man"  as Muerte sets Juice's beer and coaster down in front of him "of course you do"  Juice says tilting his head towards Tig and looking over at him as Muerte moves away from him and stands inbetween Bobby and Jax as she serves them their beers with the coasters "I love it too"  Happy says "and the freak circle is complete"  Juice says making a face as he nods his head there is a small round of laughter and Muerte hands Clay his beer and coaster Jax clears his throat then asks "Muerte.... everything set!?"  she replies "it won't be happening!.... maybe you can sell Ima off to Miles or something and have them play bait!"  Juice looks at her sadly as the rest of the guys let out soft awkward chuckles "I'm gonna go check on the pups"  Muerte says softly "I'm sorry Jax!.... even though I've only met Charlie Horse once I'm not going to use him like that!"  she adds Jax nods at her as she walks out of the church and back into the bar area of the club Clay on the other hand looked pissed