"Damn one hundred and forty dollars that's it" I groaned as I stuffed the bills in the back pocket of my black jean shorts that I had to keep readjusting because of all the ass my mother blessed me with. I kept my head down as I counted the cracks in the sidewalk, the street lights started to flicker indicating that it was time for the thugs to come out, I reached the end of the street and right as I'm about to turn on my street to head to my apartment I'm knocked on my ass. "Damn ma you can't see" was what I heard but when I looked up I was mesmerized by those beautiful light brown eyes that felt like they could look through my façade and see the truth , I quickly shook my head as I realized I was stuck in a daze. "No can you not fucking see , you knocked me down not the other way around" I say pissed as I stood up and dusted myself off. "The fuck is you saying ma I been on this corner and if you was watching where the fuck you were going you would have saw me standing here" he says coldly those once bright eyes were a shade darker and the chills that ran up my neck made the hairs stand all at once I quickly looked down from those intimidating eyes but not before being told, "Ma look up when I'm speaking to you , you retarded or something" "fuck you bi" before I could finish my sentence he yanked me by my shirt and blew the smoke from his blunt in my face while chuckling lightly and rubbing his neatly trimmed goatee he licked his lips before leaning over and whispering " If you ever fix your lips to call me anything other than my name, I'll make sure you don't say shit else you understand me ma?" I nodded quickly as he released his grip from my shirt. " Get the fuck from round here" he stated harshly as he walked away from me on the corner and stood on the building with his homeboys.
I shook off my nerves and made my way down the street, I sighed as I looked up at my high rise apartment complex and made my way inside, upon entering I greeted the door man Mr. Johnson , he smiled lightly and returned his attention back on the door, I hopped in the elevator and made my way to the third floor. I entered my fully furnished two bedroom apartment , decorated with white and gold accents in every room. I decided to take a long hot shower after the long day I've had , I stepped in the shower turning on the hot water fully and barley adding cold water, I hopped in once the steam started to fog up the full body mirror against the wall. I lather my body thoroughly with my warm vanilla body wash as I make sure I get every inch of my five foot frame. I sigh as I let the water hit my body and rinse me off, I lean down and turn the shower off I reach for my body towel so I can dry off. I head too my room as I unwrap the towel from my body and start to lotion my self with my vanilla shea butter as I slip on a t-shirt dress to sleep in. I make my way to my bed not before saying a prayer, I slide in my bed and turn the tv on spongebob but not before adjusting the volume down so I can sleep peacefully.
I feel myself about to doze off until I hear my phone vibrating , I sigh before I lean over to see who was calling me, I mentally roll my eyes as I see it's my ex Xavier, I contemplate not answering but he will just call back. I answer and before I can get out hello, I hear a deep voice say boldly " You been avoiding me Kamrie?" I chuckle as if this nigga is shocked ion want to talk to his dog ass. "No I've just not been answering your calls" I say smugly "Man I know you not still mad, I told you she ain't mean nothing" he says as if that's suppose to make me feel better about me walking in on his secretary sucking his dick "Is that what you called me for because I'm busy " I say rudely "You not doing shit but in the bed Kam I know you" "No nigga you obviously don't know me because if you did you would know you the last motherfucker I want to talk too up here calling me " I yell , Xavier was the love of my life or so I thought , we had been together for two years up until three months ago when I went to bring him lunch and I caught him and his new secretary in a compromising position and by that I mean dick down her throat and his ass leaned back with a blunt in his mouth head threw over the back of the chair with no care in the world. I made my presence known when I cleared my throat and walked up to his desk and placed his lunch down. He was so shocked and she looked dazed I simply laughed lightly and went around the desk and punched him dead in the face. As soon as the hit connected blood came rushing down immediately and I jumped at the bitch and had her ass shook. I picked up my bag and walked away as he was yelling my name. It took me four hours too pack my shit from the apartment we shared and I haven't been back since. That doesn't mean his ain't shit ass haven't been tryna keep up with a bitch , he still calls me everyday or tries to pop up at my job. I had to switch schedules so his crazy ass wouldn't see me. I snap out of my daze as I hear my name being yelled on the other end. "Kam was you listening to me , I miss you , I miss us" I choke as I play gag on my finger , I was taught that nothing is a mistake and it happens for a reason . I was done and I wish he could be done too. I inhale deeply as I try to collect my words to let him know exactly what I want, " X stop calling me my nigga, stop tryna come see me, you choose to do what you did now live with the consequences of your actions , I'm done and stop fucking calling you ain't shit no go back to Ms. Lewinsky who was topping you off" "Here you go with that shit Kam I told you she ain't mean shit to me" the bass in his voice proves evident of his anger but do I give a fuck? NOPE, I roll my eyes as I listen to this shit for the hundredth time. A part of me answers only because I still do love him and I want him to be sorry , but my other side won't allow me to sympathize because once a cheater always a cheater . "I DON'T CARE" I yell as I slam my hand on my head board due to frustration , I hear a long deep pause and then he states ever so cockily" Kamrie if you didn't care, why you answered ? , exactly because you still love me and if you think we done then you delirious" was the last thing I heard before I hung up in his face and placed my phone back on the night stand not without blocking his ass.
I toss and turn as I glanced at the clock that read eleven on the dot, I decided to get my relax box from onside of me and light up a half smoked paper rolled with my happy grass as I like to call it, I'm not a heavy smoker but sometimes you can't beat that feeling , I lean back with my back against the headboard and take a few puffs as the smoke engulfs my lounges I feel my high start to kick in. I lay back on the bed as my cheeks are set on a permanent smile , I start to relax my breathing and soon I feel the sleep take over me.
