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surprise. another update. 

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Tin was grumpy all day. And everyone in his class was just pissing him off more. Why couldn't they all be as perfect as his cute roommate? Speaking of, now that most of his anger had died down, he realised just how much he had probably scared the boy. Shit. Tin already had no chance with him and now he probably made Can hate him.

He thought back to their latest violent interaction and cringed at himself. How could he be so rough with such a cute little person? Tin spent the entire day trudging around and hating himself for always being the big bad wolf. If only he had learned how to control his anger.

Tin felt too bad about what he had done to look at Can's face that afternoon when his classes got out, so instead of heading home, he headed to his favourite bar to go to on messed up days. He did tell Can he was going to be late didn't he. And as if the boy would care anyway if Tin wasn't at home, he would probably be happy.

Tin was driving himself to madness with all his negative thoughts so the minute he had arrived at the bar, he downed three shot glassed in under three seconds. Ah, atleast now he was feeling this familiar burn. He washed away his shame with a couple more suspiciously colored drinks, until his face was flushed red. Tin wasn't a lightweight, it took him a lot to get drunk. But he was definetley in the state where he was prone to making some bad decisions.

The bar he had come to was a gay bar. Tin had accepted his sexuality long ago, and this place had always been comfortable for him to be himself. He'd met some great people here. All casual flings, but great people nonetheless. That's why it was so frustrating when hordes of girls asked him out daily. He wanted to scream at them I'm gay. But realised that if he did there would be some serious drama that unfolded. Drama that Tin did not have the patience for.

It's not that he wasn't proud of his sexuality; it's just that he already had such a bad image, that revealing this unnecessary information was likely to completely ruin him. And on top of that, he didn't want Can to have another reason to be repulsed by him. He shivered thinking about what would happen if Can ever found out. This was too scary of a thought to dwell on so he simply threw his head back and swallowed some more alcohol.

He shook his head, feeling a nice buzz and decided to bury his random feelings for Can as best as he could. He got up and scouted around for a cute boy to fool around with and was glad when he noticed one latching to him as he started swaying to the music.

A couple minutes later, the boy and Tin were making out heatedly against one of the walls of the club. Tin growled and shoved his tongue into the smaller boys mouth. The boy captured by him shivered in delight and threw himself over Tin's body. It was going fine until Can's face flashed in his mind. And then his cute sweater. Those adorable cheeks. That angry red face. Tin cursed and pulled away from the boy.

"Sorry, I can't do this"

The boy shrugged, kissing Tin on the cheek and sashayed away confidently.

Tin was frustrated, and very much so. Why did he keep thinking about Can? They had just barley met and already Tin was thinking about such things. He was disgusted with his own thoughts.

He felt crappy, it was already 11 AM, and he just wanted to go sleep somewhere. He quickly paid his tab and dashed out of the bar. Outside the cool air hit him in the face, sobering him up slightly.

But he was still so angry at himself. He let out disgruntled scream and punched the brick wall next to him as hard as he could. He looked at his fist, it was bleeding from small cuts on his knuckles. Great, he thought, this is what I deserve. He punched again with the other fist and watched the skin tear open. He cursed and punched again. He kept punching the wall till he looked like he'd been in a bloody fight.

At last he collapsed against the wall, sliding down till he was crouching. He was breathing hard and his previously gelled hair had come down over his eyes in sharp strands that covered his eyes.

He'd known Can for such a short time, but already everything in his life was spinning out of control.

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Back at the apartment, Can paced back and forth in their shabby little living room as he wondered where Tin was. Of course Tin had told him that he would be late, but he couldn't help but worry. He had been so angry when he left this morning and Can could only feel sorry for whichever unsuspecting person he took it out on today.

Can had been feeling extremely guilty about what he had said to Tin so the second he came back from his classes he set to work immediately cleaning the house. For Can this was monumental, he didn't even clean his own room, let alone an entire apartment. He wasn't sure where to start but he had been on a call with his mother for two hours, and she and his father in the background gave him pointers on what to do and how to do it. He had scrubbed the bathroom, dusted the living room, kitchen and the bedrooms and he had taken down the moth eaten curtains. He took the room that Tin had not and set up all his own stuff.

However there was no mattress on either of the beds, only a sofa. That must have been where Tin slept the other day. Can made a quick stop by his house and with help of his grumbling sister had transported the mattress all the way to their dorm.

Once he had put fresh sheets on it and finished off cleaning everywhere else, he collapsed onto the bed in satisfaction. He was tired of course, his legs were throbbing, but Tin would for sure appreciate the effort he had made. He desperately hoped so.

Now he couldn't get over the fact that Tin would not even be home to see his efforts. He tried to think of a way to contact him and exclaimed to himself when he called his good friend Ae who gave him the number of his International Campus boyfriend.

Within five minutes he had Tin's number typed into his keypad. He hesitated before hitting the call button. Would Tin still be mad at him? He decided to risk it.

The phone rand three times before Tin picked up.

"Who... is this?" Tin's deep voice sounded sleepy for some reason.

"Um, Hi Tin. It's me Can. I just wanted to ask where you are and what time you'll be coming back to the apartment."

"Ohh, it's you." Tin giggled childishly on the other line and Can couldn't help but worry.

"Tin, are you alright?"

"Of course not. Hehehe. My roommate is so cute but I already made him hate me." Tin's voice suddenly became sad.

Can tried not to be bothered by the adjective that Tin had used to describe him and tried to figure out why Tin was suddenly being so honest.

"Wait, Tin, are you drunk?"

Tin laughed loudly into the phone. "Yeeess."

Can's body filled with dread. Tin was drunk and in such a state. It was not safe for him.

"Tin. Tin! Where are you right now?" Can waited for Tin to reply in slurring words before running out the door.

"Wait right there, I'm coming to get you."  

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Two updates? YES. 

For an apology, please take my below average writing. 

Also I think i should properly freak out about 80K+ reads. ASDFGHJKL SKSKSKS. WHAAAATTTTTT ???? HOW?????? GUYS HOW DID YOU MANAGE THIS? IT'S INSANE. ABSOLUTELYINSANE. AND ALL THE NICE COMMENTS AND EVERYTHING. OMG I LOVE YOU GUYS AHHHHTHANKSSS.

This chapter's question is: When and how did you get into BL? I'm expecting some funny stories haha. 

I don't remember exactly how I got into BL, but I somehow found the first episode of Together With Me. I was an innocent child and didn't realize what I was watching. And then I was suddenly pulled into the world of BL after that. After loving that show, I was so happy when I found A LOT  more. I was around 15 when I watched it, and now I'm 17. Wow, it's really been a long time. 

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